playing over and over again in my head.
29 October 2010 2:03:00 pm
张靓颖: 如果这就是爱情你做了选择 对的错的
我只能承认 心是痛的
怀疑你舍得 我被伤的那么深
就放声哭了 何必再强忍
我没有选择 我不再完整
原来最后的吻 如此冰冷
你只能默认 我要被割舍
眼看着 你走了
如果这不是结局 如果我还爱你
如果我愿相信 你就是唯一
如果你听到这里 如果你依然放弃
那这就是爱情 我难以抗拒
如果这就是爱情 本来就不公平
你不需要讲理 我可以离去
如果我成全了你 如果我能祝福你
那不是我看清 是我证明 我爱你
灰色的天空 无法猜透
多余的眼泪 无法挽留
什么都牵动 感觉真的好脆弱
被呵护的人 原来不是我
我不要你走 我不想放手
却又不能够奢求 同情的温柔
你可以自由 我愿意承受
把昨天 留给我
如果这不是结局 如果我还爱你
如果我愿相信 你就是唯一
如果你听到这里 如果你依然放弃
那这就是爱情 我难以抗拒
如果这就是爱情 本来就不公平
你不需要讲理 我可以离去
如果我成全了你 如果我能祝福你
那不是我看清 是我证明 我爱你
如果这就是爱情 本来就不公平
你不需要讲理 我可以离去
如果我成全了你 如果我能祝福你
那不是我看清 是我证明 我爱你
Hope to sing this at my testimonial performance. HAHA. zomg. mandarin seriously. hearts dis song lately. weird that its a mandarin song that i like.
my cheena can make it kayyyyy!
aunt agony said its all up to me now.
While I'm Waiting.
28 October 2010 2:08:00 am
with all i am.love the song while i'm waiting from the Christian movie "Fireproof"
it talks about the husband who was waiting for his wife to forgive him and to come back to him eventually. and while he was waiting, he served God, asked for forgiveness, refined his character and turned out to be a more Godly man.
That's what I am gonna do. while I am waiting for His plans to unveil, I will wait patiently and continue to serve Him. After all, serving Him is what we have been called to do and it is to develop that intimate relationship with our Abba Father. No one can judge our actions except Him. What He thinks of us is all that matters. As much as I want to chase after things that I want, I need to know that I am moving in the right direction. all i can ask is God to calm my heart and pray for direction an guidance. but sometimes, is there really a right and wrong?
It is learning to simply trust God. Proverbs 3:5-7
Trust God even when we don't really understand the logic or reasons. We are prone to rely on our own understanding when it comes to life's problems and struggles. We value self reliance. Hence, the way of wisdom is to be less and less self-reliant and more God reliant. We need to seek God's understanding and wisdom in every circumstance of life. Learning to simply trust is also the outcome of a deeper intimacy with our Abba Father. We need to believe that He truly cares, can't fail us, is faithful and a compassionate Father.
I am still contemplating on the Mission Trip to Thailand in end December. A mission trip entails commitment till the end and preparation work is not just as easy as ABC. We are there to impact the people and to be a blessing to them. Most importantly, to build up our relationship with God and to understand His plans for us. It will be revealed to us slowly.. I keep having 2nd thoughts bout committing to this mission trip, super unsure..i will sleep on it tonight.
Last week was recess week and well, it was a slack recess week with no work done but i was still bee zee. Driving test (failed, i cried while driving. yes retarded. but the tester gave me the chance to pass, but i gave up on myself too early), extra full day lesson in sch, ikea dinner with my jie meis, interview at Shell house, modeled for a mini fashion show to help raise funds for Ashley who does mission works in the Amazon River, phuture with ade & friends (super fabbbb) and wkend retail therapy! i miss recess weekkkk.
with my ah bu la lang @phuture (((: (sorry i cropped you out RP!)
ilu 姐妹s ((:
i wish you knew.
the helpless like me needs to focus.
11 October 2010 10:02:00 pm
my spoken words for young adult ministry launch.How God has worked in my life through Young Adult Ministry.
I attended church since primary 5 but back-slided in year 2005. Then, I was invited to Westside Anglican Church by our brother Steven last July and am grateful to God that I’m standing here once again in the house of God, with my faith renewed and with this opportunity to testify how awesome He has been in my life.
The timing for me to join Young Adult Ministry (YAM) is perfect. It was the time when YAM just started and I got to know this bunch of young adults whom I felt very comfortable with and could relate to. It was a very warm, fuzzy and comfy feeling. I was going through a very trying period too. I fell out with a very good friend of mine and got untangled in friendship issues. That friend was closest to me in NTU and I have never felt so hurt by a friend in my life. I was at a loss of whether I should salvage that friendship as it meant a lot to me. By nature, I worry a lot and cannot let go of situations easily. But God impressed upon me Psalm 23, to find rest in Him and lift all my cares onto Him. I did so and now we are on talking terms again ((:
For 15 years of my life as a Christian, I found it difficult to fully commit myself to God. I found it difficult to let go of many worldly desires and activities. My main weaknesses were my social obligations towards my friends and active nightlife. My Friday and Saturday nights were always packed with activities and social gatherings.
I saw my baptism in April this year as a new start to my spiritual life. When I decided to get baptized, I knew I was ready to commit my life fully to God. I truly felt renewed, restored and refreshed. My priorities and focus were different from then on and I felt that added confidence and strength from Him.
I am very grateful to YAM as it has allowed me to grow spiritually with each week’s sharing, cell group sessions and my follow-up sessions with my dear mentor, Ivy. The Lord has great plans for all of us just like how he has called on Huiling, Ivy and Zhong Fa to head the start up of YAM. There are so many people out there whom have yet to be touched by God’s love. Matthew 9:37-38 says, Then he said to his disciples, “The harvest is plentiful but the workers are few. Ask the Lord of the harvest, therefore, to send out workers into his harvest field.” I am still work in progress and I am still learning to let go of worldly possessions. But I know, I want to be God’s harvester.
Just thought I would share this here. My medium for ranting. Have been very frustrated lately by my wandering thoughts, whether irrational or impulsive. I'm still trying to figure myself out.. I think in a too complex manner? HAHA. I really hate myself for being in such a state. But I think I am fine today. I have freaking quiz 2mr. its 15% of 10 AUs. HOLY COW. 1.5 AUs 2mr ya noe? Back to the books ((:
i wish i could read minds. that would be jean grey eh?
IMPULSIVE
05 October 2010 8:55:00 pm
moral of the day. don't act on impulse. i have no idea what i'm doing seriously.
