i love you.
29 September 2007 11:37:00 pm
my minds unweaving.Hall 6 DnD is finally over. no more late night practices of dance and walks. faints. but well, it was really great. i don't think i'll ever regret. the people were awesomely great. pure fun ((:
all of us.
partner. ((:
my beloved hall queenie. "CONSTANCCEEE". haha.
the gals before make up. now you know make up can do wonders ((:
our stage was damn dangerous.
Daryl, our hall king and my "guardian". haha.
pretty in braces with my dear lil ms SCANDALOUS.haa.
HUAI KUAN!
the gals with justin.
new face. khay wee the "ah tiong"!
I scalded my arm with the iron b4 DnD and now it looks like this. haa. ok, random.
more photos on facebook ((: i love hall six ((:
so SUNDAY was the day. Hall six DnD. all of us in monochrome. our hearts were thumping ubber fast as the event started. ARGH. it was at LOOF, a roof top bar overlooking raffles hotel. the stage was damn small and dangerous pls. if we were to leap of the stage, we'll fall to the roads or walkway 3-4 levels down already, and die a horrible death )): the whole place was quite small too. but our back area was pretty cool. haha. thank you HORUS for the flowers and "billboard" ((: <3 hearts many many. and to my partner, swee lee, mr photogenic. haha, thank you for being so patient with me during all the trainings. to my dearest seniors, estelle, qingfu, angela and fuhang..ur were always with us throughout trainings, fittings...whatever. mavis, huai kuan, ming xiu (hall queen!), daryl (hall king!), edwin and khay wee..ur were FAB ((: i hearts Mc's supper with ming xiu and edwin. yummy! cabbed back to hall and a few of us talked in edwin's room till 6+am. zomg.
monday. physics make up lec, total waste of time for me. then we celebrated prof law's b'dae. BarBeeQee time with the pageant peeps in Hall. ate like there was no tomorrow! KT was damn cute, he was super off and we just kept tricking him into drinking PURE. HAHA. there were onli around 8 of us left? we finished 3 bottles of absolut, 1 chivas, 1 baileys and some other stuff. omg. it was crazy. we played "who can hang onto the pillar for the longest time w/o sliding down". huai kuan & I won. haa. we only slept at 7+am and i konked out on my room floor. haha, huai kuan freaked out when she saw me on the floor.
Had lunch with Gen on tues. Treated her to breaktalk cake and Crystal Jade LMXLB ((: Farewell Gen when u fly off to UK. i'll miss u deep deep )): MISS ME.
HAPPY MID AUTUMN FESTIVAL! admired the moon, ate mooncakes and drank green tea in the night. haha, then we played with sparklers and carried lanterns around. we're a child once again ((: doncha miss those juvenile days and wish that you were a child again?
wed. slacked in the aft and then had dinner with raymond. haha, a "stranger" couple sitting with us started talking to us. omg, she was a 20 year old mother. damn young. and i'm like turning 19, but still in uni? haha. her husband is 26 years olds. maybe i should just quit school and start working. argh. went back to hall and changed. cabbed to zouk with fuhang and swee lee. it was like a mini NTU party. goodness. so many sports camp people there. we met up with raymond, gerald and friends. coffee shopp-ed for awhile then ming xiu came. edwin joined us later. shitzo nite, super dope i say. ((: ((: we supper-ed, cabbed back to hall and headed into bed at 7+am. zzzzzz.
thur.brunch at can A with fuhang, ming xiu and swee lee. then met yuqi to "mugg". ok, i was DAMN unproductive pls. kill me.
friday was unproductive for me too. i can't do ANY of my tutorials. i feel so sick in the brain that i don't even feel like reading anything. so i've been unproductive and i slacked like SHIT for the whole friggin' week. my labbie is such a distraciton. i've just finished watching the whole series of "devil beside you" on crunchyroll.com. i dunno wad will happen to my grades seriously. i feel like giving up. its so hard. i feel so stupid and helpless. I felt like i knew everything back in JC. I could handle almost all the problems. Now, I can't even handle the tutorials, what more the examinations. I don't even know who can I ask for help. Can i just give up and let go of everything? And i did damn badly or phy & chem test. erm, everyone got close to full marks? I wasted 24x7 hours of the whole recess week. I don't know how long I can pull through. I think I'm such a weakling. I wish I was back in PJ. I miss my friends. I miss ah bu and the back row gang. Never did I expect things to be this difficult...
I shall go shower and tuck all the shit into the bin. i'm gone.
ps. tc Andre. u got into a car accident, dislocated ur wadeva bones. OMG. worrying! so don't eva let that stupid friend of ur's drive u ard EVA again. i'll see ya soon ((:
I have to block out thoughts of you, so I don't lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I'm alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you, Will you never call again?
And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face
And will you never try to reach me, it is I that wanted space.
monochrome.
23 September 2007 11:31:00 am
monochrome.HAPPY B'DAE sarahrah! i hope you received my b'dae msg ((: ((: Happy B'dae aunty jesslyn, ur cambodian child loves u.haha!zomg.
i'm really tired.must be due to the lack of sleep and whatever. oh did i mention, i went tanning, and it was a "tanning gone WRONG"? ming xiu, mavis, huai kuan, khay wee and I went tanning on friday morn at the sch's pool. sun was blazing HOT HAWT. so i guess i flipped at the wrong timing, and tanned my front too much. now my front is super RED and my back is well, a lil darker, but still fair. my stomach area is red and its quite painful. chest area is even redder. the contrast is pretty big. zomg. how? 2dae's DnD. erm, can i just escape the swim wear section? )):
Inter block swimming yesterday morn/aft. super tiring. minglee and I swam for all the events. Blk 34 won ((: all did great ((: then went home to put down my stuff and met up with swee lee and edwin in town to do some shopping. this guys shop like gals. swee lee spent like 300+ and edwin spent close to 200 bucks. madness shopping frenzy. khay wee came down n went off. left and met up with yu qi. we hadta hunt for raymond's b'dae prezzie. bought him a ltd ed wallet and a silly tie since he was having a TIE b'day parttyyy. met wyna, and the 3 of us headed over to raymond's place. super nice terrace/semi-D! pretty pretty. i noe i should be controlling my diet since 2dae's DnD. but heck it, the buffet spread was woah woah! n i must sae, i ate quite a lot ((: raymond, i hope u had a great time boozing out through the night as u WISHED. haa, tho yuqi, wyna and I weren't around, i'm sure u had fun. but of cauz, i bet u wish we were there. HAA.
gotta go pack my stuff. gonna head down to Loof now. Hall DnD later. i hope i wun get too nervous. argh! all the hall six ppl infront of me. its gonna be freaky. )): i wanna put a plastic bag over my head. i just had my breaklfast and lunch. kill me. and i just scalded my hand with the iron )):
i'm off!
confidence is beauty.
cliffhanger
21 September 2007 10:27:00 pm
cliffhanger.Happy b'day edwin a.k.a edo.BIG FAT 21!
Happy b'day my dear "sister" raymond. KEE MENG. haha. oh so old. 21.sad sad.i'm still 18 ((:
Happy b'day reina, my bitch! loves. like meet me soon pls.
did i forget anione? i hope not!
ok. its like really final. i can't take it anymore. all the excess baggage of workload i'm carrying. all the work that i did not complete on time and the chapters i've yet to go through. everyone's on the ball. me,
miles away. and my fren said, i ought to be freaking out real badly. but i think, reality hasn't sinked into me yet. as though i CAN do anything about it when i'm so occupied with so many things. i CAN'T. but after this sunday, things will be much better. Hall DnD will finally be over after such a long LONG drag.
here's a sneak peek aniwae. the
8 of us. although the trainings have been really draining, totally robbing all my time away from my studies (ps, i failed my test. like the only one? the rest got 90-100 marks), it's been really fun having practices with YOU people (below in the pretty pic ((: ) hopefully, we'll still hang out after DnD ((:
the link >>>
DnD 2007i hope we all have fun on sunday. i miss my OG HORUS!
aniwae, have been sleeping on an average of 4-5 hours a day. more wrinkles and dark eye rings appearing. i was teaching tuition just now and kept falling dozing of while teaching Lemin math. omg, then i started spouting nonsense like saying that my fren eat kangkong with lotsa rice and the SBS bus dunno wadeva while i was helping her with a qns to do with COOKIES. aww man, i shall try to turn in early tonight. there's hall6 inter block swimming tomorrow. not to mention, i got a new tann! and well, i've been binging on lotsa food lately, like totally NO self control at all? when people haven't even eaten their lunch, i've already had my breakfast, tea and lunch. zomg.
PIG.
to all my dear frens whom i've not met, i noe i have totally NO social life (besides ppl in NTU). i miss all of ur. hopefully i can make time to have a good meal. i miss everyone )): i shall buzz off now. i'm gone.
the pursuit of happiness. i hope i can hang on.
crumbling
12 September 2007 5:37:00 pm
crumblingI'm seriously gonna break down any moment. Enough of complains. If i'm just gonna rant, i think my head and my blog will explode from anger and madness. Workload is heavy enough. Late nights at 4am. A severe attack of diarrhea this two weeks. Plus hall stuff? death penalty. Inter-hall swimming prac, hall pageant trainings, sports club sub-comm meetings starting... n other riff riff distractions here n there. That leaves me with zero time to do any work, while my other classmates happily can mugg their way into GPA 5.0...i dunno what shit grade i'll be getting. Plus they understand whatever the Prof is saying while i sit there like an idiot. argh. I'll hang in there, somehow.prolly and i should stop complaining and get a grip of myself.
For God and for mom&dad. so maybe, stop asking how am i.Quicky update.
1st sept was Sports Ball. It was a blast ((: masquerade shitzo. all decked out in fancy pretty pretty costumes ((: Rasa sentosa hotel was pretty but the food sucked. haha. Tim and Aud were HOT HAWT pageant stuff. tim's eight pecs. OMG. haha. congrats to ur both. ur did TOON's world so proud. ((: after ball session in the hotel room was madness. i konked out right after the 7-UP game. i really miss sports camp. SU 14 was the epitome of fun.
toon's world STANLEY love! <3
my retarded GL kian hao. zomg.
my pretty BIMbo.
the sport's queen in the hearts of TOON'S world ppl ((:
our motherly GL, wai san :D
and the rest is history. i'm gone.
feels like some prison that i want to break away from. reminiscing about yesterday, the past i long for.
I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cried
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
Is made up on your side
When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it okay
I miss you
I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do
Reminds me of you
And the clothes you left
They lie on the floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do
When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it ok
I miss you
We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were
Yeah, yeah
And all I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me
Yeah
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear will always get me through the day
And make it ok
I miss you
