the fragility of it all.
07 February 2010 7:57:00 pm
when they are gone.it's so weird & scary when people close to your heart just leave the world w/o saying goodbye to you. well of course its not like they can predict when they want to go..but its just so heart wrenching when its all so sudden.
grand-aunt just passed away this morning. my grandpa's pretty close to my grand aunt, i mean, they have been siblings for 80+ years.. and we visit her in Penang regularly. we haven't told him cauz he got warded in hospital again. yes, again. low blood pressure which is genetic so he needed a blood transfusion. i really wanna travel with him to US in june. I hope he'll be healthy enough by then. I will pray really hard. he loves travelling so much and he hasn't been able to travel these few years/months due to his ailing health. he loved travelling with grandma.
thinking of death.. reminds me of my two friends who passed away last year. one is someone really close to my heart. we weren't very close after we left secondary school, though meeting up occasionally. but she was my closest junior. she got into a choo choo train accident last august with her bf. she got knocked down by the train and died from severe injuries. when i got the news from Gracia, i was just too shock to react. it didn't really help that sth really bad happened on that day besides news of her passing, while i had to attend my grandpa's b'day. was i to smile or cry? yesterday was her birthday. it would be her 21st birthday. Happy Birthday Clara. I know you are having a good time in heaven.
in October, I got news of my course mate who found out he had brain tumour and had to undergo chemotherapy. he is still recuperating at home and won't be back in sch so soon..
then, during the exam period in Nov, my 1st 3 months JC classmate died from a car accident while serving his NS as a pilot in US. his life was on a high. he finished his course as a pilot. full fledge pilot. and he left us all of a sudden. together with so many other riff riff stuff going on..it was some mad ride through the exams.
what a 2009. haha.
woah.
HE does wonders.
01 February 2010 10:44:00 pm
miracles.its the 8th night of my very tragic insomnia. HAHA. yes, the 8th night where i haven't had a good sleep. i don't know how to cure this. I have been praying very hard every night. but you know, He is so wonderful. even with so much lack of sleep, the amount of sleep a person has in a day can equal or be more than the amount of sleep i have had in 8 nights, God gives me strength each day. He tides me thru' each day, through work at Jurong Island.. even thru' my inter-hall swimming competition. w/o sleep, he was my energy booster yesterday and i swam well. its like so amazing. Haha, how is it even possible? both our freestyle and breaststroke events got 2nd..
as much as i cry at times, cauz i can't sleep, my mind's so active, but my body feels so tired, i thank Him for seeing me thru', cauz i'm really so scared that i will just collapse one day, collapse from exhaustion. i really hope for a good's night rest ((:
find peace in Him.
