have a break.
29 March 2009 8:09:00 pm
have a break.exams in two weeks. hmmm. u noe i have 3 deadlines this tues? 1 formal lab report, 1 unit ops assignment and my tech comm final report. on top on that my malay CA is on the SAME day and malay oral on friday. the following week i have oral presentation and two test. then it will be the exams the week after next. tell me i'm so DAMN ready for the exams. NOT. can't even start studying when there are so many deadlines to meet.
HEBE.
found sth random. my NYS OG HEBE ate at sizzler last year and the waiter was some uncle muthu ayam with curly oily hair. he spelled coke light as COCK LITE. hmmm, i'm wondering wads a cock lite... well, i shall not think further. haha.
can't see it. alright, zoom in.
i pray hard, again, that i can tide thru this exams.i find it so tiring. we're mugging all our lives to attain those desirable grades. sometimes, it seems so meaningless. i haven't really found anything satisfying in life. my dear fren timmy turban is playing his guitar in his up and coming band SIXX. its sth he like, he loves music, and they are travelling to SEA countries like m'sia and indonesia, performing gigs and wad so eva. i haven't really found myself. what i like. i have too many aspirations and dreams.
i like swimming and wanted to be a swimmer since young, but did not pursue competitive swimming in the end due to the fear of growing hideous muscles. i loved ballet since young. i watched swan lake on the tape my dad recorded for me till it kinda spoilt. but i quit after awhile cauz the female teacher was replaced by a male instructor. i didn't really liked the idea of a guy with uh-hem bulging outa his tights, teaching me how to dance in a tutu/leotard. i tot he was too gay to function. i like running but was always too lazy to train. I was in track & field in pri sch n X-country in sec sch but always lagged behind due to laziness and the lack of mental perseverance.
i joined choir in pri, sec sch, JC and participated in my church choir. but for all cases, i quit after a few days or months as I tot it was too boring. standing there, singing for hours..i just got restless and it was *yawnssss. i represented my sch in the anti-drug dance competition in sec 2, but weirdly there was no dance CCA back then..well not like i can move damn fabulously now, haha. oh, i can march. LOL i was in girl's brigade in sec sch. ogays, not like the army needs me to command their men in marching. i like fashion. i like to experiment. but i dun tink i have the guts to experiment crazily to make it big anywhere. i guess to really succeed one must have the talent. i live organising events but always get gan jiong. maybe i could be wedding planner?
i learnt how to play the piano cauz i was superbly inspired by my elder sis. sigh, i quit halfway cauz dad said i was too lazy, always not practising )): I played touch rugby in JC and i guess dats one of biggest achievements in my sch days as I made fab frens and we won medals along the way. but then again, we were very very lazy during trainings. no big thigh muscles, no thank you.
i like to do so many things but somehow i leave them hanging mid-way. i don't especially like sth. i am still, finding myself.
SATAY MAN. my fav. coach. the best coach. my best senior. u'll be dearly missed ((:
hall anni. dinner.
with my favourite gals and our part time boyfriend.haha.
my brother from another mother. paul-a-laul.
perky arse with her "most" favourite. <3 to infinity
on the route to nirvana.
ten things i wanna do now.
23 March 2009 1:32:00 am
ANXIETY.exams in three weeks. playing catch up still. so much work, too lil time. i doubt i can survive. NO. i can't say i cannot. i cannot doubt Him. yes, He will be my strength. in those times where you feel helpless & hopeless, we rmb there's God. though its reali horrid of us to constantly forsake him, you noe he will neva forsake u. he neva gives up on u. neither do i wanna. ((:
TEN THINGS I WANNA DO. NOW1. Give my bestie Ade a big hug and go MAD SHOPPING with her.
2. Get my driving license.
3. Leave on a jet plane to ANYWHERE except malaysia, indonesia & thailand.
4. Lose 4kg.
5. Go on a road trip with yiling & ming xiu & other hall frens!
6. Spend more time with my family esp my youngest sis MOI MOI :D
7. Burn all my notes & books.
8. Book a yatch and sail out into the deep blue ocean.
9. Spam all the buffet restaurants.
10. Go on a honeymoon with you.
can't you see i'm dying here?
going to heaven will be my 11th THINGS I WANNA DO. NOW.
what PMS?
12 March 2009 1:14:00 am
what PMS?i've been in a very bad mood dis few days, getting irritated over the slightest things. feeling emo over nth or very small issues. depressed over exaggerated problems or for no reason. increase in blood pressure, dilating eye balls, heart palpitation. alright,kidding for the health symptoms. Paul told me to take things less seriously and not expect too much. just let go and i'll be happier. dat's my aim for dis week. exams in 4 weeks. i think i will make headlines for the 3rd suicide case in NTU. everyone loves to die.
roses for the dead. blood stained graffiti.
oh did u not noe, i cut my hair? the last time i had short hair was in primary sch. i am happy with my short hair though i was contemplating chopping of my long locks that reached the mid of my back. now i can save money on shampoo & conditioner, AS IF. i paid 188 bucks for my hair. lotsa riff riff random maintenance there. cld haf bot lotsa hair products with 188 bucks.
i'm gone, having a splitting headache.
love for this friend.
dear,lovin' u for six months and more.
