sad.
09 August 2008 12:57:00 pm
going mad. going bonkers. going mental. eeew,school has started. i hate school. i feel as tho i'm experiencing mid-life crisis. I don't even think i shld be studying chem engin. wad am i doin here? wth.
i'm damn stressed over DnD. zomg. someone kill me now. sponsorship/clothes loaning is already a prob. damnit, there's no one to share the load of the burden. everything's pretty disorganised. I'm already working my arse off for this DnD. I'm worried that this DnD makes me frown more and adds more wrinkles to my face )): i dun wanna age more!! shall i go buy some anti-aging cream now? hmmm, loreal or bioskin?
everyone's damn stressed too. some are working their arse off too, but i guess it's all pretty last minute. sigh. yeah, i feel stupid for being so worried. why not? cauz i'm accountable for every single pageant contestant. i dun wan them to think our DnD is shit stuff. God, pls make everything go well. I dun wan animore sleepless nites and nitemares over DnD )): someone pls make me smile ((:
i am so tired. i need a break. a "forever" break would be good too...
last nite at coffee club n sweet desserts n yiling,xiu,rach n swee.
its just so scary that the people close to you are not what they seem to be. worse, you're one of the last one to find out. the world is that bad. while you're gossiping or talking bout someone, you neva noe, some others may be talking bout you. then you think to yourself, what are your flaws that allow people to gossip bout' you? But actually, welcome to the real world, that's just how it works. maybe i'm still in my own bubble, living in my own world to realise how horrible everything around me can be. it's good in a way as i don't reali get to see the ugly side of most people. but it makes me seem stupid n ignorant to everything. does that mean i have to stop giving every single person the benefit of doubt? or are my flaws too transparent in my sight? argh, afta the circle of trust talk last nite, i vowed to continue living in my own lil bubble. yes, truly, ignorance is bliss.
i gtg meet yiling soon, maybe. Grandpa's dinner cele later. YAY. oh, hall camp last week was alright. hmmm, some hiccups here and there. it was my all time low for the entire hols, hence, it was bad for me. lack of sleep. i'm stil sick. fever for one week. recovering from flu now. everyone pls take care too.
HAPPY BEEEEDAY SINGAAAPOREEEEE!
i'm gone ((:
when you gave it your all...what did you get in return?
