porposal's gone.
29 June 2008 2:41:00 pm
proposal's gone. all gone.F it. i am DAMN pissed off. i spent the whole damn morning doing up the sponsorship proposal for pageant intending to send it to Daniel Yam asap since i have camp 2mr...its all gone. i saved the file, definitely. but i dunno wads wrong with dis koo koo com. i'm pretty lost for words. from morning till now. i got no time. omg, dis is so gonna affect my camp mood. i wonder why am i frettin' over DnD so badly. will anyone pls help me to find clothes sponsors? like pretty impossible to find them all by myself rite? argh. asshole.
i'm gone.
fuming inside.
12:27:00 am
fuming inside.meet up with
the gang last friday was great. we got tix into zouk for freakin 15min n left for wen hu's place to chill. but it wasn't great cauz i freakin made a mistake by drinking port n vodka one afta the other. mixing is a no-no. so in the end we din manage to head baq to zouk. gosh, i'm sucha burden. it was reali freaky waking up in the morn on a bed. thank God it was Cheak who was beside me. Dawn, my apologies for showing my unhappiness cauz u din call us the entire day n we alr decided to head ta clarke quay to chill. yes, n thousand apologies for imposing at your wen hu's place. i'm sorry, it was a fugly sight. but i noe i was free entertainment for ur. lol. "dun bluff me, i noe its not chewing gum." "i can walk in a straight line!"
thank you dawn, cheak, ting yan, roy and wen hu ((: glenn n ruo ning, if onli u were there.
luo han fish's lips.
PIG me stealing food from ruo ning as usual.
the gang ((: ruoning n glenn missing )):
DAWNIE pang sai <3 <3 <3
chillin' at wen hu's place.
Air supply concert last sat was AWESOME. its my 1st like "real" concert i gotta attend. i mean, i attended lotsa concerts b4, but not like those concerts for fans n stuff. cheak was covering the concert event for his internship so he signed me in as his photographer. cool shit dope shit. WHOO. i was like 1-2 metres away from the stage for the 1st three songs. HAHA. the crowd was an older crowd with some youngsters ard. Air Supply dated baq since the 1970s so yeah. but the crowd kinda went crazy towards the end, rushing to the front. pitch perfect vocals, singing sounding like the CD, totally mesmerizing, totally angelic. i was serenaded, my heart was fluttering.
i'm all out of love, i'm so lost without you....awesome. ((:
pretty retarded. 25th june was officially named the letter
"C" day by paul, shir and me. here goes.
Ching and paul
Cheong were deciding where to eat at PS. it was
Crystal jade,
Carl's junior or
Cafe
Cartel. shir decided to eat at
Cafe
Cartel. we ordered
Creamy macaroni, grilled
Chicken, st. louis pork ribs,
Cheddar fries, the
Combo add-on that Came with
Cold ice peach tea, free flow
Crispy toasted bread, oreo
Cheesecake and
Creamy mushroom soup. so many things started with the letter "C"!! how amazing &
Coincidental! ((: i was reali amused by it, we just kept laughing at every word starting with "C" relating to that day. it was a harrrpie sinful dinnner.
happy belated b'dae jin han! mambs on wed was totally hilarious with the totally woozie jin han. "where's your mole?!?" so sloshed till he shouted I WANT S**. lol ,with who HUH. zomg, super entertaining. another hall six nite. hearts ((:
it din reali end well for me. horrendous. i seriously don't understand how can ppl leave their frens alone and go off with someone else, leavin' others to clean up the mess for ur. the definition of friendship is wharped. its used frivolously. makes me think hard, whether i treat my frens dat way. haf i been horrid too? i'm seriously angry with myself for gettin angry over trivial matters which ain't totally related to me. i place myself in the situation n start to fume. ARGH. brother paul-a-laul, thanks for listening to my irritating rantings. i'm sucha draggg. rah.
i will be off for SCBE faculty camp from 30 june - 4 july. mon-fri! NUEVE! i hope it'l be alright. i hope i wun b a disappointment as an OGL. HAHA. miss me everyone ((: the eva busy bee is gone (for camp!).
bestie. less than minus three you.
all hail almighty ah bu!
we loook kinda norrrmal now.
all bow to queen ching.
normal human being at last.
kickstart my heart will you?
in need of an emotions control machine.
18 June 2008 11:17:00 am
in need of an emotions control machine.YES. astro exam is over. now i can concentrate on my research n meet up with my frens ((: but i tink i will still be as
bee zee as eva. i gotta get sponsers for hall pageant/DnD, come up with the program/segments. ARGH. its endless. its not lika holiday. i can't wait for FOC n my trip to bangkok.i seriously nd a break.
sat- mini DnD meeting with racheal n eng kuang. den met clara for lunch den met andre with dinner. haha, we had dinner at
popeye's chicken at the s'pore flyer! <3 popeye's, beats KFC hands down. but the queue was DARN long. average waiting time is like 20min? crazzzy. s'poreans are crazy over the s'pore flyer. is it like some crazy frenzy or wad? the queue was snaking. the rotational velocity of the ferris wheel is lika snail, is it dat fun? but it was a pretty sight. like gigantic RING. i wish to haf dinner inside one of their capsules, one day perhaps, haha. we chilled at pacific coffee. sipping good coffee ice blended rocky road while sitting on comfy sofas..sleeepy. dats why i hearts weekends.
attended service at international baptist church on sunday. kinda not attending paya lebar for now. oh wells.. met titus for lunch and we watched
KUNGFU PANDA at PS. i hope i will neva become the
dragon warrior cauz i dun wanna b a big fat rolly polly like
PO, the panda )): had botak jone's for dinner with my family. 3 fastfood/western meals in 2 days. i'm on my route to obesity! RAH.
haf been deep in thought lately. tinking over wad has happened. jumbled up tots n emotions. i'm pretty unhappy with many things. it seems as tho there's no beginning and end to it. sometimes when u feel as tho u could rant at someone, actually, u realise that person doesn't fully understand you at all when u tot they did. but reali, who does aniwae? i feel like some emotional wreck now. the slightest comments affect me like a piercing dagger. n dis frustrates the ppl ard me. omg, when will i eva learn my lesson? my jie meis experienced it.
victimised. yes yes, everything's a facade.
dawnie's back from aussie!!! yes, the gang is meeting up dis friday. more hot pang sai lovin' ((: ((: i hope gen comes baq soon. she's been long gone in the UK )): i wonder if yw is baq too. he shld haf finished his exams by now. ADE & SHIR, WE SERIOUSLY GOTTA MEET UP. NOWWW. jie meis, cor's b'dae up next, but i tot we were gonna karaoke?
i kinda finished watching the entire series of hana yori dango 1 & 2. and yes, go watch absolute boyfriend (Zettai Kareshi). starring: the lover robot below <3
Hayami Mokomichi. hot blooded male lead.whoo.
every drama you/I watch, will make you feel lika
love fool. wad a stupid love fool...i can see my dark eye rings comin' out with more drama watchin'.
alright, i'm in lab now. gtg get myself busy so dat i dun lk like i'm slackin' away. heh. i'm gone ((: <3
i found dis song afta soooo long. watched the drama "romance of red dust (風塵三俠之紅拂女)" in my JC days, starring shu qi and wallace huo. i noe my cheena seriously sucks. oh but at least there's english subtitles for me to read right? i neva knew angela zhang had such great vocals then. ubber nice song. but i tink i nd some hanyu pin yin n translation.
真的- 张韶涵
我努力的仰着脸孔,
试者让眼泪不下流,别往下流.
不问他感觉到什么
在我生活中不在伤痛,不伤痛.
想要说,却还沉默.
伸出手,无法触碰.
天空突然一片辽阔,
原来你是真的离开我.
在我不熟悉的世界,过新的生活.
闭上眼让泪水滑落.
此刻你已真的永远离开我
在另外一个没有我的世界自由的走
i rather you just sae it in my face and sound like an asshole.
yes, i dun haf the damn courage to face it or be truthful to myself. its either DO or DIE. seems like i hafta settle with the latter. and history will repeat itself.
forever.
08 June 2008 10:39:00 pm
waiting for that second chance.alright, my new blog layout of cute lil bimbotic
sheeps was really CUTE. but, i dunno wad happened to the pics )): their gone. photobucket succckkss. so i'm baq to the old one, till i find a new one which i like!
aniwae, astro exam is dis wed. argh, i did damn damn badly for the 30% quiz. argh, it doesn't help dat my results came out on the same day. it just MADE my day. when i saw my result past midnite on 5th june, i was in a state of shock. i din expect those grades seriously. i did improve as compared to last sem, but still way below prof law's and my expectations. sigh. i felt so demoralised, upset and wadeva neva in my life haf a eva felt so depressed over my results. i know its no use crying over spilt milk, but i just cldn't control myself. i've seriously had enuff. enuff of activities dat make my grades like pang sai. enuff of such mediocre grades, enuff of feeling stupid, enuff of feeling demoralised, enuff of feeling like giving up. enuff of this SHIT. why can't i just freakin' get it RIGHT. it seems as tho' its a sign, telling me i'm just not cut up for uni. zomg. but i can't just quit on myself. shld i just thank God dat i stil maintained the grades to stay on scholarship or shld i just cry my eyes out cauz i'm act at the bottom of my cohord and cn yang batch. freak it seriously.
aniwae, i did sth stupid last wk. i was in hall n was gonna collect sth from paul. i wore the wrong pair of slippers. one side was white roxy the other side was black ripples. brrrr. and i onli realised while walking down. thank God i wasn't goin to canteen or sth. wad a cock. alright, it wasn't dat stupid or funny was it? yeah, it wasn't.
my "silly-ly",i tink i'm a lab hazard. i keep spilling solvents n chemicals all over. major n minor spillage. i've broken so mani glassware too. i'm just not cut up to work in the lab)):
klutz. my PHD student even made a comment jokingly that he will carry out the experiments by himself next time. i tink soon or later, i may spoil some of the expensive equipment in prof zaher's lab. i got jinxed lab hands.
look! my dearest timmy turban teletubby is on urban. mr urban turban. haha. tim, i bet u wanted to sae u'll give urself
ten outa ten for good-looking factor ritey. no la, i'll give you 11 outa 10 k. now lotsa gals will flock to timmy. onli gals with hot legs n perky ass apply. (tim's standard) HAHA.
i've been having weird dreams lately. reali weird. sigh. i dreamt of all the ppl close to me and those who i have been in contact with lately. gd/bad omen. hmmm... i can't wait for wed to be over. i miss u ade-ah-bu-la-lang! mambs with hall ppl dis wed. meeting andre on thur. meeting clara on sat. ade i meet u dis sunday? ((: i shall take my leave. i'm gone ((:
i dreamt that you have fallen for.... i guess 2nd chances are just crap shit.
