life like a piece of snapping string.
18 May 2008 11:36:00 am
life as fragile as a thin thread.my bad, i skipped church again dis week. excuses are for losers.
i'm gonna visit my aunt later in hospital. she's been diagnosed with breast cancer since 1-2 years ago but did not seek medical treatment. the last time i visited her was one year ago. she looked so weak, not even having the energy to open her door to invite us in. she was strong in her faith but faltered along the way. mom always accompanied her to church for healing service, but as weeks passed, her faith in Him dwindled. i guess she trusted more in the doctors. but its too late, delayed treatment has caused the cancer cells to spread to the entire body. this is my 2nd closest kin who is dying of cancer. grandma passed away due to a whole lots of cancer when i was sec 1/2. the doctor has given my aunt 1+ more week to live. my only wish for her is that she can leave this world w/o pain and go to heaven.
i can't imagine myself losing someone so dear to me. i'm not a least bit close to my aunt cauz i have neva met up with her, but wad if one day, my parents or grandparents start to leave me one by one? grandma is in st. luke's hospital for rehab and will be back on tuesday. the doctor found a fracture in her left leg which had gone unnoticed for many years. sometimes looking at how my grandma suffers cauz of her alzheimer disease, you just wish God will take her away to end all her suffering, cauz it pains the ppl around her, seeing her in that senile state of mind. she can't reali walk, can't eat by herself, is thin to the bones, can't think properly. i rather not be at home to witness all these.
home is like hell with u around.aniwae, i went over to
ade's place ytd. bestie love. and of cauz,
shir beloved, Mc's with me in the day. sherilyn, sarahrah, jessica, eugene, tim grasshead, marcus and kynneth were there too. we watched
stardust! like totally retarded and gooody at the same time ((: i love.
to my bestie: ade, thanks for listening to me dat night. haha, i just tot i wld want you noe wadeva's happening in my life tho we're in different schs now. like its gd u noe who my frens r n i noe who ur frens r. its hard since we dun meet often. but its just sth i wld always smile about when i tink of how mani years we've known each other and how much we've been thru. like how u went 4 nich's b'dae so u cld spend time with me tho u neva eva toked to him ((: dis very lil things.. when some of our mutual frens ask me "so how's you n ade, still alright?" i will just break into a smile cauz i noe wadeva it is, no matter how lil we tok, everything's fine in a way or two. thank you ah-bu-la-lang. HAHA.
AT ADE'S PLACE.
sarahrah! shirlene-neeee! ching-a-ling!
haha, shir n me always in the pic. ade's face is cut offff. where's rah jess n sherilyn?
GRACE'S 20 on tuesday.NO MORE TEENAGER.
jie meis.
since fairfield methodist.
there's 05S17 class gathering at Mr Ling's house later ((: steamboat! i miss my jc classmates. n we hearts mr ling romantic house. i wonder how long can these gathering last. if only, if only they could be forever ((:
i'm gone.
soft spots for people which pulls us in deeper n deeper..
