drama queen.

die!

30 March 2008 10:32:00 am

my heart is not there.

i seriously can't focus on mugging. ARGH. i just wasted away my whole aft napping and staring into space. I cld onli get down to some work in the nite.

there's still
1. CNYPR report & presentation
2. 15-20 Pg Physics Term Paper
3. HW110 Speech
4. Org Chem test dis friday
5. Physics test dis monday

how now brown cow? the exams r in two wks, and all the saddistic profs hafta purposely push all the report/project deadlines near to the exams. hence, no time to mugg 4 exams. its just so darn anal. argh.

aniwae, tuesday's hall 6 anniversary celebration at nanyang executive house was a lil draggy but well, with a comical host like alvin yeo, HAA, funny. sat with the road relay ppl and almost everyone from our table reserved certs, whether merit awards of half colour of wadeva. ah boon had a whole array of certificates.
with all the certs, i tink he can graduate from hall 6 with 1st class honours!! HAHA. i got the certificate of merit for sports ((: cert of appreciation for cheerleading (<3 my cheerleaders). well, then we had a big big choc hall 6 b'day cake... sometimes, u'll just feel as tho u spend too much time on all the hall activities, hall 6 has ENDLESS amt of activities, but ah wells.. argh, yeah. GPA chui. lol. <3 hall six ((:
i shall go watch tee-vee now, lin xin ru as the blind gal in Sound of Colours. niceeee.

aniwae, watch dis, a spoooof by Benny a.k.a BEN-NI a.k.a HELMET.

farniiiie.but well, now dat there's no trip sharing, the prof may just go back on their words. pang sai )):

AH ha, i tink i will make a damn cool PROF with hairy BIG nose. ah ha.

last sem: ellyne putting on my roomie's oh so disgusting fako nose.

good morning professor ching.

i'm gone.

why do things always not go our way?

he did not forsake me.

22 March 2008 7:34:00 pm

not forsaken.

HOME SWEET HOME ((: thursday and friday nite in hall was horrid. hall was empty and so quiet. everyone went home. me alone and my room. utterly depressing. oh i mean, me alone and my roomie. thank God phyllis was ard on thur & fri nite ((:, i was alr tearing when i saw her. i tink i wld haf cried myself to slp on both nites if not 4 her presence in the room. thank you roomie! ((: sigh, i missed church service on good friday. it was a BAD FRIDAY. math mid term test today (saturday). which prof is so saddistic as to put a mid term test rite afta GOOD FRIDAY?!? )): but math mid term was fine. but i noe dat the end yr exams wld b much more difficult. sigh, more test to come. org chem test, phys test, HW110 reflective paper, physics term paper, chem research report & presentation. my body is slowly dwingling away. how long can i sustain this shit?
exams in THREE WEEKS. bleah. ARGH!

God works miracles in our lives. I know HE will ((: . have faith.

suddenly kinda miss em.jie meis and I at my crib during the recess week. PIZZAAA.

tgt since fairfield.

easter sunday 2mr. i rmb when we were young, esp in kindergarten, we used to soak eggs inside those coloured water bowls, and we'll get, EASTER EGGS. oh freils, i wish i was young again. i tink i'm agin )): haha.

it says ZERO trans fat? guess who guess who?

its eenie-meanie PRINGLES and its happy to see you! :D oh and, its pizza flavoured!

and not to mention, reali HARRPIEEE to make u FAT. i ate the whole can in one sitting, afta my lunch, b4 my dinner. burps*

i'm gone.

sometimes i tink i'm alright. i tell them I am but when i ponder over it again, am I reali fine now? i tink i am. mayb its just sth i'll feel for in a while...

CHingDelivery!

18 March 2008 1:20:00 am

i'm fine now.

last sat's themodynamics test, GONER. like thermo-DIED. )): i tink i will fail or just get a pass. seriously... math mid term this saturday. no one ever said living was a good thing. argh... aniwae, i'm quite traumatised. i happily went home SWEET home after thermody test and hall 6 sports day, and younger sis greeted me with a "i tink u gained a lil weight at ur waist, u're fatter now." FATTER?!? argh, dats the last thing i wanna hear. sadness is a tragedy, and kids speak the truth, they say the darnest things. i could definitely see that my 11 year old sis wasn't lying. oh man, like i can even control my monstrous appetite. someone help me! haha.

aniwae, after my run around campus ytd nite, i saw what i normally see every night. the ah-bung Mcdonalds McDelivery man. I wonder why so many ppl like to order Mc's when we noe their food is reali shit stuff, low quality, the food portions r getting smaller too. but we all still <3 Mc's many many. I kinda like the BIG red McDelivery bag. i wish to own one soon ((: doncha tink its quite nice? I can use it as a school bag and put lotsa books and go MUGG at LWN library. HAHA, super big and spacious, maybe i can even kidnap cute lil toddlers like jonathan and hide em' inside. I can even carry FOUR water bottles in the 4 side pockets. OH, maybe I can even get free McDonald meals everyday since I'm helping them advertise!

Maybe i should bang on this McDelivery strategy and create my own ChingDelivery with a BIG "C" like the one BELOW. niceeee ((: den i will be a happy gal.

we heart McDelivery bags ((: gimme one ah-bung!

i'm so glad everything's alright. the silliest things make me happy.

spiralling down.

11 March 2008 9:43:00 pm

spiralling down into a deep black hole.

i feel like giving up but i can't. i'm NOT doing what i like but i noe i can't switch course. how is mom & dad gonna cope if they hadta pay for my tuition fees? i got no choice but to stay on and buck up on my studies. is it a blessing or is it just so unfair to me that i'm the middle child? I feel the burden laying down on my shoulders. it only gets heavier each time i think it over and over again. i wonder whether they are even aware of what i'm going thru. i guess i don't wish to burden them and cause them to worry. They are already in their 50s. i really don't like whatever i'm doing now. but do i haf a choice?

one mid term paper every single week from now. 4 assigmment papers left to finish and i miss ade a lot. time machine anione?

recess week fever with my WOOZY KIDS (by ming xiu).

the people who make my uni life more worthwhile ((:

the only reason why i ponder and think and feel. who else?

not worth it.

02 March 2008 2:07:00 am

its not worth it.

The workload ahead of me:
1.HW110 Group Project 1000 words
2.HW110 Assignment Report
3.HP801 Assignment Report
4.PHYS1B Assignment Report 15 Pages
5.Liver Cancer Research Report plus PPT Presentation

Mid-Term Paper awaiting for me:
6th March- Org Chem Mid Term
15th March- Thermody Mid Term
22nd March- Math Mid Term

Plus all my back logg. Prof's at Chap 14 for math but i'm stil at chap 5. WOW. all the best to me. like reali all the BEST equal DEATH. argh. I wonder how am i gonna survive this sem. This recess week was SUPPOSE to be a catch up week for me. Well, super inefficient. late nites everyday. but still fun ((: haha, i still can't get enuff of fun.
been in a shopping frenzy. brrrr, wed mambo with hall six ppl was madness again. esp yiling, xiu, tits and tim ((: <3 mani mani. same scene, outside the carpark. i'm glad i was fine. brrrr. but i tink i'm just such a disappointment to my close frens whom were there, witnessing IT. totally uncalled for. wad on earth... that stupid stick. yeah, yiling always say, on a stick. hate me, reali.

emo kids are silly and dumb. just like me.