empty.
25 August 2007 3:22:00 am
empty.Just finished bathing. And like what time is it now? 3+am. Residing in Hall SIX...just got back from HALL outing, 1 NITE Stand. Haha, corny name but wells, it was not bad. Was really packed with activities the whole of Friday. Morning to afternoon, school. Then off to Arts, Design and Media for the Nanyang Scholars award ceremony. Haha, I pretty like the CN Yang group of people, they're really nice. We're pretty tight ((: dance part was fun too. the buffet spread n cam whoring was even better. Then rushed to shir's 21st B'day bash at Bukit Batok's Club CSC. More buffet and sinful cakes & cupcakes! omg, can you see my waistline expanding? So much so for unintentionally losing weight during all the FOC.sigh. then cabbed down with paul to meet up with the Hall 6 peeps in Geylang supper-ing away. I never tried frog legs before, but it was my 1st time tonight. Verdict: chicken is
nothing once you eat frog legs. Its damn, good. ((:
Anyway, I've yet to talk bout my sports camp OG group, STANLEY. Loves((: Kian Hao and Wai San, our GLs were the best! Toons world <3 too. ((:
at UNIVERSE BeebEE Q.
them at camp ((:
And then, there was hall camp. My OG group,HORUS. Lotsa loves too ((:
I feel like a dumb ass amidst all the CN Yang people. Most of them understand the stuff. Me, just kill me seriously. I don't know how am I going to catch up. Math tutorial: not even one question touched. i'm lagging so badly but I don't even know how to help myself. I feel so
helpless. And this is where He comes in. But it's as though I treat Him as a door mat. God.
Busy is my middle name now. I really hate emo-ing away in Hall. Ade just wrote me something on our joint blog. Couldn't help but cry. I realise how much I need my close friends around me. I feel so distant away from all my pjc friends. I don't wanna be here. I wanna be where they are now. As much as I want to, I can't. I'm tired. I shall go to bed now. I'm gone.
and when will it end? when will I stop staring n envy?
totally misunderstood
19 August 2007 12:37:00 am
totally misunderstood.Sports camp and Hall camp are officially over, like 2-3 weeks ago. I miss camp but at the same time, i'm so glad it's over. I'm so tired, i don't even know how i am able to to pick myself up from the bed each morning. Sports camp was a blast, no words to describe. But with practically 2-3hrs of sleep per nite, i was a goner during camp. Hall camp wasn't too bad, but with so lil sleep too. and it was back to back with sports camp. So you can imagine the state of my body. I've been sick for 4weeks. down with flu n cough. i think i'm dying. But just recovered. Hopefully my voice won't sound tranny for long.
I kinda feel lost in transition now. I can't believe i'm already in uni. It feels so weird. The worse thing is that, my pjc friends ain't around with me. ade's in NUS. all the touch rug gals r in NUS/SIM. I'm alone here. Really makes me wonder whether i should have chose NUS over NTU. ok, like wth, regrets now? haha, maybe. i don't really feel like i'm in uni. Hall feels like a prison sometimes. Oh wth. Two weeks of sch has passed. Into the 1st week, I already feel the pressure. All the tutorials piling up. And what? I haven't even touched a single tutorial. Lagging behind so badly. I don't understand a single thing my lecturer says especially math. math lecturer PMSes at us. My sch mates understand and i don't even bother to ask them to explain a single shit to me. IT'S like totally in a mess. I'm trying so hard to keep up with everything. I can't breathe. I know i sound like some complain queen, but with 160 AUs in 4 years, it's just a death penalty. Hall activities, post sports camp stuff, my chem engin frens, my tuition job, my work. zomg. oh man period.
break down.
and you never thought she would be the one who would backstab you. the last person on your mind. trust has lost it's meaning.
