graveyard
12 March 2007 4:26:00 pm
my graveyard.Its been a really tiring week for me. So many late nights of writing essays. I took like 3 nights to finish one :(( Took leave today to complete my scholarship and admission essays. I have so many essays to write. Sigh, i never knew we had to write essays as a added bonus to enter the university. So, being a kiasu Singaporean , i will. Die die, i have to get a scholarship. By God's grace i will. Applying for a few, but i think the competition is rather stiff this year. I don't think mom & dad can live on if they were to bear the burden of my university tuition fees. Worse, pine grove can't enbloc now since not more than 80% of the residents signed for it. Can i say, we're in deep shit pit? No money no talk. oops shit. I should have faith Him. I should. He brought me this far.
Anyway, i shall do a little update. Mr Ling's house is splendid. One word. ROMANTIC. Its not totally superb, but for a HDB, its OMG, a chic-modern touch with a very homey feeling. Our class had a potluck cum housewarming cum CNY gathering at Mr Ling's house (together with his cute pretty wife!). Hong baos! They are really generous. beams*
I totally dig the layout of their house. In future, my crib will be pretty too ((:
Dinnered at sakae with Nich. My treat, lost an 'A' level bet :( haha. Then it was super graveyard at MoS. It really hits you like a roller-coaster, choo choo train. super potent booze. Dripping dirty bitter black. Music was good. All caged up and practically in another world. I think i wasn't standing on solid ground.
I hate work now. Monotonous. So BLEAH. Merine's quiting, should I hand in my resignation too? I'm fed up, i'm tired. Period.
Highlight of the week. Went back to fairfield on Friday evening. Attended the 70th 3rd Girls' Brigade enrollment service. Oh, i forgot that i was once a GB girl. haha. Felt a strong sense of nostalgia as i stepped into school. Haven't been back to sec school for ubber long. Unfamiliar and familiar faces. Old and new GB girls. New fairsians whom I've never seen before. I just couldn't collect my thoughts and was actually quite scared to face everyone. What would i say to them? Will it be weird? Oh man, no chatting topic?! In fact, many of them couldn't recognise me. When i told them who i was, they were like OMG, you look so different. ok, thanks man, i think i evolved into a green monster. It was dinner buffet. Well, it was hell lot of fun. Well, maybe i was a little detached from some of em, somehow.. but it was great seeing everyone again. Is fairfield really where i belong? Then why ain't I close to many of em? Sigh. I felt quite sad that i've distant myself from many of them. Or maybe i'm just born to be a loner. haha. wth. Emo me. ok, shut up shut up. Maybe i shall go back to fairfield to visit my teachers one day.
I hated the way she acted all cocky. After all these years, still the same? Like hello, we sat for the SAME 'A' level exam. YOU, Super Elitist thinking. Maybe you need some brain-washing. Its the new century, woman. NTU open house with chan kai yin on saturday. That woman was late again. And i'm quite a tardy queen. That pot is worse. haha. So, nice & kind Paul accompanied me around the whole day, even when kai yin reached. So sweet of you paul! Went to paul's hostel to look see. Maybe i'll stay in a hostel too huhs. Got to know a hell lot on chemical & biomolecular engineering + the double degree in biomedical sciences & traditional chinese medicine. Quite interested in these two courses. Maybe biological science or life science too? But the pre-requisites are super high. Like everyone in those two faculties are straight A students. Yes, i may qualify, BUT, i'm sure demand is super high :( Maybe i won't do business after all? I'm LOST. Can't decide but i have to submit my application by today since the deadline for some of the scholarships are today. I'm going to be competing with the 'S' paper and 4 As students. Will i regret if i were to put chemical & biomolecular engineering as my 1st choice? What if i don't like it later on? So many doubts and fears. damn.
SMU and NTU open house on sunday. Don't really like SMU though. The layout of the open house booths were quite horrid. Not very "open house-friendly". Anyway i got a new top and shorts! haha. Kai yin was super late, AGAIN. Then kai yin and I headed to NUS. It was much better. And as usual, i asked a hell lot of questions on chem & biomolecular engin. I'm quite sure i'm going to choose this, just that, its either NTU or NUS. I shall just apply for both 1st. I hope its the right decision. argh.
Shall go finish that darn essay. All the best to those who haven't applied, happy writing the admission essays! haha. i'm gone.
my life is getting more and more complicated.Pave my future, lead my way. Not by my flesh.
