shruggling for bliss
25 February 2007 10:00:00 pm
shruggling for bliss.Round 2.
anyway,i'm so crazy over HANAZAKARINO KIMITACHIHE a.k.a hua yang shao nian shao nu.stars ella, WU ZUN and jiro wang.ella is so cute that you can't help but squeal in delight over her every action and drop dead gorgeous wu zun, ella's reel life love interest, adorable to the max.the show's just so hilarious and comical..i'm dying of eye candy overdose.
chu er : dad's side came over n it was e usual "chu er" big feast. mom will sloggggg out in the kitchen every year before lunch and whip up something yummilicious. mom cooked curry fish head, mixed vege, asam sauce with prawns and corn soup. ma relatives brought roasted duck & pork, stewed pork and some imperial treasure pot,whatever it is. But it was finger lickin' good. ((:
chu san : boring boring in the morning. roy, gare rern, lynn, chin yoong n me visited rui rong's house in the after noon. we were like PIGS.omg,chewing munching and all the SINFUL snacks,non-stop. it was horrendous snacking.played black jack n watched da ge da on channel U. hur hur. had steamboat dinner at home. gosh,just as the soup started to boil, our steamboat pot broke down. den we substituted it with another pot which broke down too. damn. lose screws here and there. it was a pot belly day. hear my buttons go pop pop pop.
this CNY has made me so sick of eating. but i just can't stop eating. ain't it ironical?i'm so sick of looking at the food because i feel so darn disgusted with myself for the non-stop binging. my appetite has sky rocketed.worse,my work place's pantry is stocked up with so MANY CNY goodies! oh man,soft moist kuek lapis, crunchy crispy mixed nuts, sweet pineapple tarts, prawn rolls. oh man. so while working,i'm munching away. i kinda hate my job now.i'm like stamping thousands of pieces of drawings with the red stamp "controlled copy". i really hope i don't go bonkers and have nightmares about "controlled copy". my earlier filing job has already caused me to have insomia. i've had ENOUGH. good sleep please God, please. so now, i'm like a document controller now :)) woah. anyway, the peeps working in the thunderhawk project are quite cool. i'm laughing like almost every hour with Merine around. Noreman is a malay but he keeps singing chinese songs to attract our attention. uncle latiff is mr hip & hot uncle. peter lee, the assistant construction manager is a greedy pig who slacks all day but can earn big bucks. most noticeable person around,the oh-so-damn-serious-during-work-time mr wang:the project manager. overall,my work place people may even be funkier than we teenagers. they have life, night life.
had company CNY dinner on friday night at pioneer seafood restaurant. food is SO-SO, but it was fun ((: yu sheng! every part of the dinner was hilarious, more laughter with merine, the 30 year old koo koo woman.
i'm happy!
lazy saturday morning and afternoon. met nich in the evening for movies. had dinner at some indonesian restaurant. we're never going back there!haha
Movie of the week:
Notes on a scandal.woah woah,i'm getting more
intellectual man. *beams. usually i only watch simple, easy-to-understand chick flicks. i'm so proud of myself, the 1st intellectual movie that i can understand so-so. hahaha. it was a really good movie. worth the few oscar nominations. the show had some female kind of brokeback mountain, only that the love was one-sided. goodness, a 70+ year old woman liking a 30+ year old woman,mistaking friendship for a relationship. then the 30+ year old woman committed adultery by having an affair with her 15year old art student. quite thrilling actually, with the freaky sound effects. then we met up with roy, glenn, cheak and ruo ning. music + crowd, not really great. dance floor,sardine packed. we left early.
anyway, i know i'm rather over-sensitive here, but i'm really bothered by this, really. roy just told me that some people have been asking him about me, saying that i club alot and get wasted everytime. like wtf? do you think i'm that dumb to get wasted everytime.like hell no. i've learnt my lesson already after that ONE or TWO times. and i don't frequent em alot. i'm not some crazy party animal. make me sound like some loose shit who loves to get wasted and don't know what i'm doing. sorry, but i do know what i'm doing now.maybe i've been acting retarded and idiotic when you see me. it was on purpose for some instances, for the fun of it.maybe ur think ur know it all. but sorry, stop judging me when you haven't judged yourself.i'm not perfect.i feel like some rotten fugly shit sometimes. i know i'm being so defensive here. but you don't have to make me feel that bad right? i sound so defensive here cauz i feel like i've always been treated like a child. i know sometimes i need many people to take care of me cauz ur claim that i can be too bimbotic at times. yes i know this bimbo here can be an irritating big ass.thanks to all my close friends who care for me, i really really appreciate it, your are always protecting me and taking care of me like a lil sister. but all those who ain't that least close to me, stop putting me down yeah.maybe your don't know that it really hurts, but it does, to me. sorry if i've hurt you too.i've said my piece.relieved.
sometimes i don't know why i go to church. sometimes i wish i had the discipline to pray and do my quiet time every single day.sometimes i wish life wasn't so routine.sometimes i wish God would speak to me directly and tell me everything is alright. my spiritual walk hasn't been all that smooth-sailing.i feel myself falling deeper and deeper into the dark hole.
skipped service this morning, though i was at church.i see no point seriously,no reason why. sat inside chruch library and starting reading about the main cults.mormonism...blah blah.my family and some church peeps went over to a friend's house for lunch with strangers around.haa. we had mini-worship and prayer session. headed to cityhall for lonely shopping. a loner,sadly. seeing people with their friends and couples together, i suddenly felt like hiding in one corner. but somehow, i like shopping alone at times, i can take my own sweet time, self-reflect.ok, that sounds retarded.bought a new pair of black heels and i got myself the "SHOPAHOLIC AND BABY" book by sophie kinsella! it was just released and its the No. 1 non-fiction book now ((: best seller man. haha. so love the shopaholic series.i have the whole series and will continue collecting every new copy that is released. yay.
i shall go have my bath now. tomorrow there's work. and friday is most prolly doom's day.results day. i really pray that i won't disappoint mom. flying off for now. gone.
to my dear dawnie who's in aussie, can you hear me. felt so lost without you last night. though it was just this short period with you from end december to febuary, and we have no idea bout each other's history, i really had heaps of fun with ya. i just hope you can come back real soon then we can turn the whole town red again. haha. you know what i mean. this time, i'll help you look out for your small eye boy. won't forget bout you when you're not around. i'll be waiting with my red paint, for you to be back. tc my dear friend and study real hard. miss <3
