helpless.
06 February 2007 9:24:00 pm
so helpless that u don't even want my help...fine:( i'm still sick. sore throat and feeling all horrid. to make things worst, i just ate lotsa lotsa peanut butter n some choc. wow,so much for speedy recovery.and i'm still working.MC 2mr?
i'm getting so stressed and pissed this few days. my fuse is "shortening".
Firstly, the HR dept of my company told me to go back to the headquarters cauz shannon (whom just returned from the malaysia side) will be joining northyard's admin. I'm working at northyard now which is a 10-15 min walk from the HQ. so i reported to work at HQ this morn after biding everyone at northyard goodbye yesterday. WTH, HR director had NO idea or seemed blur to the idea that i was returning back to HQ? so she was like "oh, what are you here for? do you have anything to do here? shannon hasn't confirmed with me if she's going to take up the position at northyard, so do you mind if you go back to northyard now?" wadeva she said la. but that was so irresponsible of them,you could have at least given me a call before hand. they didn't even have any hint of guilt.i had to look sad and give a slight "wth" face before she apologised. so i had to walk all the way back to northyard. but i was happy.i like working at northyard. the people there are more real, down to earth and friendly, haha. uncles with their vulgarities and hokkien blah blah blah *&^$%@#!# super clowns i say. i get to laugh everyday. though the conditions there are harsh, surrounded by construction sites, super dusty & stuff...i just feel better at northyard
than at HQ with all the big shots or office people clothed in chi-chi attire. seriously, sometimes i really pity the foreign workers. they work freaking hard and earn peanuts. they do OT only to find themselves not being paid cauz the stupid GM is a freaking stingy man who cancels their OT forms AFTER they have completed their OT. Life's so unfair. those who get to wear chi-chi clothes and sit down in air con rooms earn the big bucks while those who slog their asses off in the hot sun earn peanuts, or shall i say
sesame seeds :( i'm one of em'
now. so i'm going to aim for honours, not just a normal degree. i really hope i can do my momsy n dad proud for my A'level results. its coming out soon! since O'level results are out this friday. *paranoid. God bless me :(
those words from your mouth freaking hurt me ok. i wouldn't say i'm the perfect sister.i know you don't like me at times just because i'm NOT a push over and i'm strict with you, sometimes even fiercer than mom. but this is really for your own good but you just don't see the whole picture. you think everyone is against you, blaming you... like hello, you're the one pushing mom to her limits and causing her to go crazy. like count your blessings and stop looking at what you do not have. spend within your means. you do not know your placing at all in the family and think you're the greatest. you just shout at anyone like as though you're their mother, pointing that little index finger directly into their innocent faces. we just want you to put in more effort in your studies and stop playing 24-7. but it seems like timeless advice and pushing never worked. am i to say you're hopeless? i can't, cause that's totally wrong of me as an elder sis to give up on you & say you're hopeless. but even when i'm helping you with your chinese, you're point that darn finger at me and tell me that you did not ask for my help & don't need my help cause it will never work out. i hope that this is not the last straw, because you do not know when you'll need my help one day, and i'll just walk out on you. don't push me to the limits.
i'll consider reporting sick tomorrow.sick.lethargic.
peace.
