work work work.
30 January 2007 10:16:00 pm
work work work.die die die.work is reali takin a toll on my body.tho i'm startin 2 get use 2 the early timing but, its still so tiring. i feel like a robot. everyday is like a routine. wake up, have breakfast, of to work. work's over, home sweet home, have dinner, tv & bath time, off to dreamland. i guess most 18 yr olds r goin thru e same thing if dey haf a 5-day work week ): jenny (my colleague) took leave from thur to sat.so,with the little that i had learn from mon-wed, i was left to die alone, doing all the admin work at the production site on my own. it was lonely lonely sitting at the table from thur-sat w/o jenny ): but there were many nice uncles n funny colleagues that made my day better.
it was hectic then slack day on saturday. got a ride to clementi from uncle ricky. hell to adult fare man n slow SBS buses. had a late myojo noodle lunch.slack abit n then headed to town at 6+pm to meet dawn, cheak n roy. i got a new pair of wedges ((: had dinner at KFC n we cabbed down to zouk. we were quite early. act,its was quite dumb, e fact that we knew phuture was playing music made by local DJs n zouk was playin house, n we still went there *stares at CHEAK.. haha,CHEAK! u always make ALL the wrong decisions. how many times do you have to learn from ur mistake.i'm kiddin! but stil luv u Cheak,u're juz a dumb dumb ((: listen to me next time k?hahaha.
met some of cheak's fren, charissa, rebecca, sherilyn n her grp of guy frens. four of us plus sher,becca n char decided 2 cab down to MoS since e music sucked, but those 3 gals got bounced. so we decided not to pang sei em. basically the whole nite was pretty fucked up. everyone had their fucked up moments of anger n bitch fits. the whole nite was quite bad. unhappiness n tension among the 4 of us. i don't noe how it turned out dis way. n there some turn off moments.
becca got freakin' drunk n puked like shit cauz it was her 1st time. argh. how wil i put it. another dumb nite. but sher n char r real energizer bunnies. it was,WOAH.
cabbed home with roy roy.
cheer up dawn.talk to her soon yeah? you'll be gone in two weeks time. i'm so gonna miss you, but we'll be meeting this sat nite rite? ((:
i didn't go to church on sunday. i'm restless during sermon, not paying attention during adult service. i've been missing in action from youth service for so long to even feel like going back. i'm lost in some transition, caught in the middle. wth,i don't see a point going for service when i can't even take my mind off other stuff. as much as i feel darn guilty, i need to know my purpose of going to church. if i'm not paying attention, what difference does that make me from a sunday christian? gosh. and i really really wanna listen to sermon.
went over to ade's in the evening.it felt a lil weird initially. but then, it slowly felt like a normal evening at ah bu's place. rojak dinner! ade luv!
work is making me so stress.stress.blood boil.
gtg slp now.tata ((:
hurts.
22 January 2007 8:21:00 pm
insensitive? but it hurt me too. i hate myself now.happy b'dae cheryl loh n david sng ((:
went shopping wit cheak after church last sundae,one wk ago. spent more again. my wallet really has a BIG big hole now ):
work work work. i'm dying soon!! early mornings just ain't my kind. but i'm still an early bird. body clock wakes me up at 8-ish, 9am on normal days. Wednesday was a really special day. took half day leave and headed down to school,YES SCHOOL ! ((: i so miss touch. haven't held the rugby ball for ubber long. met ryan,char,ade,jeremy at lot1 1st. then we cabbed to school. juniors were having their trials to recruit the j1s so we had a short game. kai yin,huiyi,kaixin,alana,char,ade n me. sweet. but wth, our game only lasted for like what,
15-20 min ?!? darn short can. the guys had to use the field for their friendly matches. wth, came down all the way from work to play touch, and what did we get out of it? 15 min of game? pathetic.
was freaking pissed. dinner was damn dumb. i also have dinner at home. but i sacrificed my dinner because its so hard for us to have a get together. its like one in a million years that we get to meet. and to think i wasn't pro-dinner, i wanted to head home to have dinner and watch my tv show... in the end, i'm the one eating. thanks kai yin n kaixin. that long chat was sweet pleasure. we should meet up for more dinners ((:
friday was quite a "shock day" for me. My HR director called me into her office. she said "actually, we don't really need you anymore, since i've taken over your job and we don't have anything for you to do anymore, do you mind if today is your last day? or do you need more time?" no early notice by the way. it was just so darn abrupt. what could i say at that point. "yes i need more time?" haha,so of course i said ok, its fine with me. anyway i got this job through a recruit agency, don't want to be bonded by any contract anymore. my HR director gave $200 to 3 colleagues and i. my farewell lunch at a seafood restaurant near by. so w/o her, the four of us drove out to have a sumptuous lunch. totally not worth it, 160+ bucks. their portions were miserable, though we were pretty filled up. there was ,mango fried in batter + cold prawns in mayo, shark's fin, braised mushrooms with broccoli, ee-fu noodles, steamed fresh prawns, steamed fish in asam gravy, mango pudding + fruits. i'm so gonna miss everyone at the main office ): uncle alex, leo, darrell, nancy, carol, mui lin, joanne...
met kaiyin on saturday afternoon for a short retail therapy session. we didn't get anything though (a miracle) there's nothing nice in town now.i shall head to stupid places like chinatown and little india soon. haha. it was home sweet home, so tired i was on the verge of fainting. 55 cents bus fare ((: cheapo.
yesterday. church! dinner with parents, sis, aunty janet, aunty angie & uncle philip annabell & amos. met gwen at chinatown. yes, chinatown! haha,cause we were going to have dinner at Great eastern's Han's near chinatown. shopped around places we've never been, made some really great discoveries. their stuff there are cheap cheap. but i didn't get anything though. then met up with the rest of the jie meis to celebrate cher's b'dae ((: we were freaking noisy, bet everyone thought we were retards. walked around the night bizarre later on. lonely ride home on bus no. 61 while everyone took train. once again, happy birthday cheryl dear. prata and your house soon?
anyway,i'm still working at tuas, in the same company, but in a different department now, under QC (quality control) doing admin work. since they didn't need me in the HR dept, they transferred me to QC. the company area is really big cause it consist of many construction sites and offices. now, i'm on the other side of the company, far far away from the main office and CANTEEN (10-15 min walk). my office is beside a construction site now. once i leave the office to go to the loo, all i see are banglahs and foreign workers. Omg. someone please present me with an award for being so flexible and adaptable to my new dusty and dirty environment.i can't be a princess anymore. i've to ditched my heels for pumps or boots now. the most retarded thing is that, i have to wear the safety gear : safety helmet,safety boots, safety goggles when i'm out of the office. its actually quite fun. the people there are really friendly and ubber nice. no scoldings ((: and pay rise! and no more contract with recruit express. the only turn off; all that banglah starring can be lethal. i should just pluck out their eye balls. they stare at ANY gal that comes along. and i got to work 1/2 day on saturday. i really hope i can put up with such conditions. its something really different for me. no more skirts and heels. damn, bimbotic-ness.
gtg sleep. tata. wish me more luck tomorrow. God bless me. oh, dump the luck. God bless i mean.
was i too insensitive?i didn't even know what was going on in your life. i'm sorry. sadly, i didn't expect concern to turn into hurt. it made me hate myself so much. i'm just so scared it will happen to my friends around me. not you please. i really don't know what's going on. maybe i was a little too harsh on my words. but its too much for me to take. i can't accept it. never did i expect concern to turn into hurt. makes me feel like not caring bout anyone anymore. paranoia. it made me cry too. you take care. i shall leave you alone for the moment and not ask anymore. maybe i'm not someone you can confide in after all. i shall just keep quiet next time.
pain pain pain
14 January 2007 10:07:00 am
pain.its the weekend.n i'm so
cause i get to rest. well,it doesn't help that my body clock still wakes me up at like 8am on a saturday morning although i slept at 12am-ish on friday night? sigh. so,i'm still freaking TIRED. was so looking forward to the weekend after a whole week of work. early mornings and worsening dark eye rings + eye bags ): utterly devastated, i think i need extreme makeover to give me plastic surgery. all the early mornings make me feel OLD. i don't know why. but poor ah-bu has to work OT on so many days, and even have to work on saturdays?!? my poor gal. ade,at least you get to earn the big bucks :/ i got a miserable pay.i feel like going on a vacation to shop till i drop suddenly,alone.
i've put on my braces! well,its not as exciting as i thought. its actually very tormenting and painful. the wire of the braces is actually slicing into my gums, causing abrasions and wounds. my teeth and gums hurt like shit. i can't even chew or bite. the only thing i can eat is porridge or soft food. i miss all my yummy n sinful cravings :/ sadness is a tragedy.well,at least i can still enjoy A sinful tub of ice cream.haha. brushing my teeth is a chore too. i take like 10-15 minutes. goodness. first, i use a normal toothbrush and then its the interdental one. its so painful to eat then i don't even feel like eating already. omg, "ching not eating?!" i'm a pig, and everyone knows that. i'll just not chew and swallow the food. (i need an enlarged throat.) but this is what braces do to you. oh my, sorry if i'm exaggerating, but its really very bad.
on my way to work on friday, an accident occurred outside my work place. a motorcyclist crashed head on into a BIG lorry. my colleagues didn't see that dead covered body. but i saw. it was quite shocking at first. i was thinking to myself,is that a man's body under that black thrash bag, omg it is! i saw his right feet n hand sticking out of the large thrash bag with some traces of blood. with this, a cliche' statement; life is so fragile.
met CHEAK in the morning for clementi porridge. wow,happy hearty breakfast waiting for us ((:it was yummy yummy yummy. no pain for my gums ((: then, greediness got the better of us and we ordered chwee kueh (wadeva it is). headed over to suntec/marina square to shop(before the crowd starts filling in) while cheak went home to take a poop in the toilet,yes shit.
we had lunch at marina food loft, to think we had breakfast not long ago. tried my luck on ban mian. all e noodles got stuck, couldn't chew on the vegetables.so i decided to give up on eating the ban mian. dessert was a TUB of bud's lava brownie ice cream. totally sinful, when cheak and me want to lose weight. haha. shopped around. the end-season sale at zara, topshop, dorothy perkins and miss selfridge were very disappointing. so we decided to go into shops, we don't usually go to. went into fox and i got myself a pair of khaki pants at around 60% off.
we walked around carrefour "koping" free food samples and mineral water. i would never do that usually, but with stupid cheak, anything dumb is possible. un-glam-ness, haha. luv grocery window-shopping,.get to look at all the yummilicious food.
i have never thought of going into U2 cause the exterior doesn't look that fantastic, but oh wells, we just went in for fun anyway. you can get the clothes there for a steal. seriously. got a pants, chi-chi looking black coat and green blouse. cheak got a berms and coat. happiness,blissful-ness, spend spend spend. retail therapy is sheer pleasure. cheak, thanks for the day, was great! u missed snooker to go shopping with me. i shall do you a favour and find u a TALLER gal. you know...haha. and i think i just burnt a hole in my wallet :/
taking off to church now. tata! good week ahead,and as soon as it started, the weekend is OVER ):
and sometimes, i feel as though they treat my like a fool. a child. a dumb ass that doesn't know anything.someone who needs super protection. a juvenile kid. am i that blonde to ur? i'm not pissed at all. your know i won't get pissed at all. i forget all so quickly that it makes me even more vulnerable. but if it makes your happy, brings your laughter and joy, i find no qualms in being your dumb blonde. i'm happy, i really am. we play different rolls in life i guess. i destined
to play this role and i should be glad about it.
Got this photo from the web.
And this is Us at the inter-jc pageant.
its cropped. i was standing infront n my arms looked horrendously freaking big ): it can't be shown to all man-kind. but clara has uploaded the original one.argh!
tired.
10 January 2007 11:08:00 pm
HAPPY B'DAE DAWN N STEFFIE!
so empty.so tired.rest in peace.work is taking a toil on me.as much as i try to sleep early, i still can't drag myself out of bed at an unearthly time of 6+am. its like school time? gosh. work is SO boring. but the uncles and "brothers" i sit with are so nice. s,that makes up for the unearthly hour. no one scolds me.i can do whatever i like, but of course, i got a STACK of work to complete (with no time limit, but of course i still got to finish it sooner or later). no one checks on me. i feel as though i got no boss. but still,walls have eyes. so i'll just do my work well. ((:
inter-jc pageant was quite a "woo". e` queue outside zouk was freaking long. cut queue with roy and amy n the rest of the commonwealth people.
the contestants weren't exactly the hunks n belles of their schools. a hand full were quite cute, most rest couldn't make it. guys were lusting over that acjc gal. our school's Michelle did us proud and clinched 2nd position n Ms photogenic award. den it was the after party. phuture was heaven. period.nite.
class dinner at vila'ge on sunday.well it was quite boring.but dinner was good.haha. as usual, we had nothing on the menu after dinner. i was tired.it was home sweet home for me.
i'm putting on
braces tomorrow.quite nervous.wonder how i'll look.hideous? hope NOT. what colour? pink? oh wells. i suddenly feel as though my life is so boring and bland. its work all day.i'm so bored with whatever i'm doing. there's no meaning. i feel so empty because i have no purpose in life now. oh wth am i talking. everything around me just seems so colourless and meaningless. i shall go rest now. retirement. wish me luck at the dentist. dr chong please be nice to me! ((: pretty teeth here i come!
ah bu i miss u! u hear me?
no satisfaction at all.
2007!
06 January 2007 1:01:00 am
HAPPY 2007 ((:its a whole new year.haven't blogged for really long,this is gonna be a long long entry. haha.
last wed was Mr edmund ling's wedding dinner at furama hotel. he invited our whole class. i was really excited,seeing both of them, tying the knot. its just something so lovely,i felt so HAPPY for mr ling ((: the food was not too bad. thousand times better than swissotel stamford. prawns were super fresh. it was a good night.
last friday was my last day working at tan & au partnership. took over samantha's job at the law firm as an admin staff for 1+ week. she went on a holiday. really enjoyed my job there. i miss shilah n susan :/ both of them are so hilarious.susan's bark is worse than her bite.she's always scolding, making noise, but she's such a koo koo brain deep down inside. shilah is one nice gal. they gave me a farewell gift, like after working with them for 1+ week only.sweet. i feel quite sad that i have to leave behind this job and move on to another. hopefully,i'll get to see them soon :(
i can't believe its already 2007. wells,i thought that christmas 2006 was quite loser-ish. was hoping new year's eve would turn out alright. it went totally
wrong. cheak n i travelled to expo n met dawn n groupie for zouk's countdown party. gohs,if i knew it was partially mambo night, i wouldn't have went. it was horrid. i felt so sad.hated the songs. and the RnB DJ was LATE. RnB songs only started spinning at like
2am? like wth. so many people left already & there were so many others sitting in the open, sulking over the stupid oldies being played. it was just horrid. not to mention, dxo last sat was horrid too. the DJ was so freaking irritating.he kept interrupting almost every song to tell all party goers to WAD, "put their hands up in the air?" n all that shit.shut up for goodness sake n just let us have peace. period.
halt.i'm gonna put on braces for my teeth next thursday! woots!i plucked out two teeth already.hurt like shit man. n dr chong already inserted that stupid metal stuff which keep rubbing against my inner mouth n gums.hurts. now i know what people go through to look better.
i feel
weird not going to school. i feel lost. i miss school. not the
school itself, but my friends and the feeling of going to A school. i'm lost in a transition of adulthood n teen-hood,whatever you call it. i feel old going to work now. started work just this wednesday as a HR assistant. the pay is OK only. its at
TUAS mind you. so freaking far and i have to crawl out of bed at an unearthly hour of 6:45am? sigh, all that for $6/hour? totally not worth it. thank God the company hires a shuttle bus to pick the employees up from jurong east mrt station. my work site is full of
banglahs n foreign workers. not being racist here, but they seriously scrutinise every gal as though they've never seen one in their life time. thankfully,the
banglahs only appear during lunch time, when i buy food from the old, dirty, disgusting, make-shift canteen. the rest of the time, i'm in the office, working with decent people. job is pretty mundane. at the moment, i'm just doing data entry. work area is good. really like the people i'm sitting with. can gossip with the uncles n they got lotsa tidbits ((: yumm. just one thing,
unbanglahfy me, too much eyesore. hopefully i can survive there for the next
three months :/ God help me.
computer crashed.all my pictures,music files, whatever, ALL GONE. i don't feel anything now because, it hurts too much to even feel anymore pain. after the stolen camera incident with all my precious pictures inside, i don't know how to feel towards losing more pics n whatevers. i don't know why such unlucky things have to happen to me. i thought its a near year, 2007? wth. anesthesia please.
inter-jc pageant at zouk,sat nite.meeting dawn.going there to support kah wee. haha. hope he gets the 3rd prize at least ((: gtg sleep now. tata. i miss my AH-BU :(
i was a fool to all of ur,al along. u think i'm just so easy huh. u're wrong bas*
