Blessed Christmas.
25 December 2006 11:01:00 pm
Blessed Christmas hohoho! Merry Merry,happy (trying)Christmas is the season of GIVING,as every1 saes...hmmm,well i dun reali feel very "christmas moody" dis yr.no christmas mood AT ALL.
24th dec.
church in e morn.afta service,i felt a lil weird. standing in a mass of ppl whom r familiar to me,but haven't toked 2 4 a reali long time. i felt so out of place,i reali wanted 2 leave e` place immediately,hide myself.conversations wit church frens were some wad short n erm...huh? yeah. oh wells.went 4 lunch wit family n mom's frens.vegetarian.den headed over to grandpa's place.had steamboat for dinner wit uncle n aunty.cabbed home. was suppose 2 chill out wit roy n cheak.but due to some
miscommunication which was so so dumb,we din meet :/ sad n lonely christmas.
25th dec
CHRISTMAS! 2dae's sermon was quite meaningful. Pastor Koh said that Christmas is e season for forgiving.not bout forgiveness btw humans but God's forgiveness 2wards us,for our sins,well wadeva we've done. Had lunch wit family n headed home.wad freaking tired.so i had a nap.din meet roy in e end.roy was a pig too.haa..so loser-ish to spend christmas in dat way.haha.had momsie's dinner n tv all e way.i'm so on e top,listening to my korean drama soundtracks (full house n my girl).
aniwae,to my beloved ade bestie,haha,i'm so amazed by how God brot as tgt as besties.i mean, i'm so glad dat i haf such a fren like ya.our "cold wars" r retarded n short.we fight for wad we believe but it somehow ends on a gd note.i noe dis december wasn't exactly very smooth sailing for both of us due to some riff riff...but i'm glad we tried to work it out. hearts u ah bu.
and to all my other frens,esp my closer ones,i reali treasure ur.heck dat my prezzies dis christmas r like miserable,ur R my best presents. i guess christmas has lost its real meaning eva since it got commercialised. Non-christians celebrate christmas wit feasting,parties n gift exchanging. dats not wad christmas is.its sth special.not juz bot parties n wadeva. well yes, its great to busk ard in e` christmas mood n feeling..ah wells. gtg now.got work tmr n touch rugby chalet in e nite ((: WOOTS!
luv luv all my dear frens. ((:
legal!
23 December 2006 2:57:00 pm
legal!19th December-legal 18.
It all went wrong. i can juz eat shit n go die.
Morning- Was raining n chilly.met Samantha at her blk n her dad drove us 2 e` work place at tanjong pagar. i'm goin 2 take over her job 4 two wks while she's away on a holiday.
GOSH.i tink 19th dec is reali an UNLUCKY dae.all e` office lifts had power failure.n our office was like 20th storey? so we waited 4 darn long b4 e lifts cld work again.
Well,she taught me all e stuff till 10+am n i zoomed off 2 jurong east 2 meet ade n meiyi.since i decided to go ice skating but it din work out,we juz decided 2 go town, n go NTH.
Poor kaiyin was stuck at home cauz her freakin big sis hid her e` house keys somewhere.reali wished she was ard.i'll juz go kill her big sis now.
so we juz walked ard,shopping...felt so pathetic.it was raining so heavily,wadeva plans 2 do sth were destroyed.
ate lunch at subway,had a craving.there was onli 3 of us,so there wasn't much we cld do.
den janet n ryan joined us.n we walked ard somemore.
Kaiyin i guess u were e` onli one who reali knew how i felt. it was all a masquerade.it was a facade.i reali wanted 2 feel happy.i reali din wan my mood 2 affect everythin.shopping was juz an anesthesia.so it juz rained e whole dae,literally.
bot some stuff.
a white ms selfridge bag.
a glittery blue tube top from dorothy perkins.
black pants from zara.
headed home 4 dinner.den rushed outa home.ting yan came 2 pick me in a cab n we headed down 2 attica at 9pm 2 collect e` party tix from e` organiser.
waited 4 every1 2arrive.we got a small table n e place dat crowded.i tink i busted a BIG hole in my wallet.paid $48 4 2jugs of housepour n $10per person 4 a bottle of champagne every1 shared. party groupie: ade(besties),kaiyin,kaixin,char,leonard,ida,tim,roy,tingyan
party ended ard 3am,pretty early. found out my camera was stolen.gone.even tho there were our own ppl alwaes at our table.bet it was those guys who were hooking suzie up.those guys sat at our table.how kind of me 2 invite suzie(a total stranger) to our table,n sth like dat happen.
i guess i got onli myself to blame 4 my carelessness.i'm so so careless n unlucky.i tot i was cautious enuff,afta two of my wallets n one hp were stolen from me last yr.i ought 2 kill myself 2 dat.
plus e cam's not mind.its my grandpa's,i reali dunno how 2 inform him bout it.i'm at a lost.shaken.
n i tink i shall stop here.someone wake me up from my self-pity mode.i tink i'm irritatin all those ard me wit my toks of regrets,whines,complains n cries.but i reali can't help it.
sorry my frens.
trying to:
Forget bout e` rainy day.forget bout doin nth but shopping on the dae.forget bout e` masquerade i hadta put on infront of ur.forget bout the lousy afternoon i had.forget bout the failed surprise ur tried to pull off.try forget bout my b'dae cake dat got lost in attica.
fuck to the person who stole my camera at attica.
what i reali wan is my frens to b ard me. no nd 4 those surprises or wad haf u.i dun wanna expect so much cauz sometimes when u do...u noe wad happens... so, to my DEAR FRENS, THANKS 4 everythin. so sorry ur hadta see me cry on my b'dae. so glad ur cld turn up at the party.it was hella a gd time. luv u all. <3 style="font-weight: bold;">anesthesia. tot Cor wasn't comin alr,den suddenly she juz came from behind wit a slice of choc cake ((: n a balloon.haha. took pics n walked ard town afta dat n OMG,i left my hp at wisma's toilet.i did IT again.luckily e` aunty cleaner picked it up n returned it 2 me.i outa be shot dead.
wonderful nite.
21st dec. work. boss was very nice n distributed e` hamper goodies among me,susan n shilah. woots! yummy yummy.den met cheak at vivo 4 dinner.ate at coffee club. yumm yumm.n silly cheak was so nice,he got me a mud pie cum b'dae cake.haha,wit green peas as decorations.thanks cheak!!
gtg work at oriental now :/ hope its fine 2dae!
i luv my dear frens!thanks a million lovelies. tata.
THANK YOU
mom n dad for e chocs.
meiyi n mj for e` silver clutch bag.
janet n kaiyin for e` pretty pink roses.
kaiyin for e b'dae cake which i neva gotta see or eat.haha.
roy for e` aldo ear rings.
roy n ting yan for the cheese cake slice.
ruo ning n glenn for e` kinky topshop underwear.
chin yoong for ur pretty pretty b'dae card.
tiff ting for ur cute lil mug.
cheryl for ur photo frame n note.
cor for e` big balloon,nydc choc slice,silver cross n card.
cheak for e` mud pie, green peas n bacardi rum.
paul for e` b'dae card.
did i 4get ani1?
further n further the red sea parted.
never leave me.never let me go.
18 December 2006 11:27:00 am
never leave me.never let me goLast wk has been pretty hectic.worked on mon,tues,thur n sat at Oriental. out of four working daes,i hadta get my ass outa bed ard
5+am.Gosh,wondered how i managaed 2 survive e whole freakin' week,wearing e stupid court shoes n standing for mani donkey hours.
Haven't been meeting up wit ah bu 4 qutie long,starting to miss her :/
Wed: E` Mango sale 4 public was on wed la,if i've known it,i wld haf went early early!dey cheated me by putting up e` notice dat e VIP sale was on wed n public sale was on thur.sigh. met kai yin,ade n janet 4 e sale.well..it wasn't all dat great,in fact,e stuff was rahter horrid.haha.den had dinner wit janet n kai yin at food republic n it was home sweet home.i reali nd lotsa clothes now,but there's nth 2 but,everythin reali sucks big time. i wanna hongkong hongkong!!
Thur: And work at oriental has been a torture for me due to some stupid "lao jiao" (old timer). He tink he's freaking great,ordering me ard juz b'cause he's an old timer.Gosh,i tink i can do some stuff beta than him. He's overboard. He's crazy,even mr old uncle rahim tinks so. Was controlling my anger,was on e` verge of bursting.i wanna find an
admin job soon.i forgot,i juz threw my chance away awhile ago....
Fridae: How dumb was i to tink dat e` pine grovers were gonna meet on fridae 4 dinner.dey act,goin 2 meet on sat! so i was like preparing to change 2 head to town and msged steffie, "ok,see ya den steffie" den steffie replied "ok,see ya tmr!" i was like huh?2mr?shit,it was so dumb.in e` end i cldn't meet em,cauz i had work on sat. Went over 2 ting yan's house 4 booz in e` nite wit roy,cheak n him.i guess i drank a tad too much n starting sobbing n crying over my legal 18.haha,felt like some
whimp.felt so dumb crying over it.to tink dat ur gd frens wil alwaes be there 4 u,no matter wad..to noe dey r not free on dat dae.gosh,"u must b crushed". to noe dat mayb dey din even care,oh,dey forgot.haha. "you can juz laugh to urself now,wad a joke."
oh,why am i even caring bout dis,it makes me feel even more loser-ish,caring so much bout THE dae.i'm so sorry cheak,roy n ty.thank you 4 seeing me thru dat nite,letting me pour out all my :/... i bet my puke was reali horrid,sorry dudes.haha. den there were dis three guys who joined us at e` poolside cauz stupid tipsy tingyan invited em.one of e` guys has e` exact same b'dae date as me ((: same yr same date. woah,how coincidental. cabbed home wit roy ard 3+am.it was a giddy walk...
sat: work.all e` rich n famous were attending some wedding dinner.it was a no-nonsence no-mistakes nite.gosh,it was so scary. slept at 4+am.
sundae: woke up late. 3rd week i've missed church.i shld juz shoot myself. met paul-a-laul in e` nite 4 my b'dae dinner treat ((: dined at
sushi tei, holland village.i official announce dat sakae sushi's food is yummier! e` food wasn't dat bad,but seriously,sakae is beta n more affordable. dessert was at
Häagen-Dazs,played dai dee n bridge wit bro paul there.woots! thx 4 e` card ((:
juz finished watching anthr serial of e` korean drama
My Girl on youtube.finished full house too.wad's next? all e` korean actresses n actors r pretty n handsome esp Song Hye-kyo, Lee Dong-wook,
Lee Da Hae n Lee Joon Ki. super overdose of eye candies. gonna meet up wit back row clique 4 b'dae dinner todae.penang fd fare buffet at york's hotel! its RN n my dae since our b'daes both fall in dec.alana,where r u?!? den 2mr's ice skating wit besties,ryan,ky n janet. party @ attica 2mr nite. i hope it'll all go fine...i hope,wish...tata 4 now.
one more dae 2 legal eighteen. put on a sad face :( ?
tired.so tired.
11 December 2006 10:42:00 pm
tired,so tiredSA's party at attica was not too bad.went wit tingyan,roy,dawn n z-kent. z-kent's so cute ((: my new eye candy,too bad he's attached.haha! n i so luv dawn too.she's a real dumb blonde.
we waited 4 Ms Giel 4 freakin TWO hours 2 get our tix.lol,dat lil apple gal. it was reali crowded,even more crowded den our sch's post prom.everybody's bodies were touching on e dance floor.drank some booz(freakin ex) n got e party started. e` SA ppl were reali into themselves...the DJ was horrid,he kept cutting e` songs, but music selection was was not too bad. lotsa nigga nigga. e` party ended like at wth, 3am? we juz frekain wasted our $$$.haha. ty n roy sent me home n it was nice comfy bed ((:
P.S. Dawn! we so rocked the podium.haha ((:Ade bestie,happy b'dae,altho some unhappy stuff happened btw us,i hope we get over it.i stil luv u.n u're stil my besties!!! job searching sucks,i feel lika fool now.fool fool fool.i wanna buy so mani things.i wanna do great things.but i'm still some small worm doin sucky jobs.i'm gonna turn legal soon.n its gonna b some LOSER dae 4 me.its like dat every yr,wad's new? tata 4 now.got work at 6am 2mr.waking up at 5am! woots! ((:i hate birthdays :/.
boring boring boring.
04 December 2006 7:26:00 pm
Boring,loser-ish life i live.how loser am i.haha.wth.
us at momo.bestie,dearest RN wit her darling.
i dunno wads wrong wit my spiritual life recently.its bad.i gotta put God 1st.i'm like ok,one moment i nd HIM, i seek HIM,nt moment i 4get bout HIM.omg,how can i do dis?!?he watched me over e` A'levels period.now dat i'm more free,i shld b walking even closer 2 him.grrr. i must haf more discipline in my QT.
sunday
guess wad?i skipped church.i almost killed myself 4 doin so,how ironical. i was like a loser...went to town n headed 2 e library 2 "repent".i ended up reading mags n searching 4 bimbo storybooks. den headed over 2 ade's place to slack. 5+ pm,wenta holland v's FOS wit shir n ade 2 see wad cheap deals we can find.bot a red top n red hollister shorts.reali cheap! we met up w` paul-a-laul 4 dinner at crystal jade la mian xiao long bao.aww man,yummy yummy,tantalising.we ordered xiao long bao,guo tie,spicy peanut sauce la mian n spicy meat sauce la mian.heavenly.we were so full.i tink i'm reali reali growing fatter.i can tell,clothes tighter,n i'm eating non-stop. :/we walked ard n walked paul home. it was gweat ((:
went 4 two interviews today.loser-ish me,yes alone again.i got such a
gd life man.ade's off 2 chalet.its like no honey,no money,nobody love's me club.i got so mani things i wanna buy.reserved a zara pants at liat building.gonna get it 2mr.goin 4 job training 2mr too from 9+ to 5+.i got e job!but i got no frens there :( hope it works out ((: den SA party w` geek,roy n cheak in e` nite. hopefully,my hols wil get beta as e` days past. my bestie's b'dae is up. zoo zoo zoo....for now.tata.
dat nite seemed so unreal.was it e` real me.was it juz a hallucination.did it reali happen...
prom prom prom
02 December 2006 10:52:00 am
Prom prom promnew blog skin!
thur.
went over to ade's ard 2pm to do our nails,hair n make up. its D.I.Y.,so it wasn't exactly like professional.but shir was great!she's quite a pro.thanks so much gal.den sarah came over 2 do her make up.all dressed up n ready 2 go!ade's mom fetched us over 2 swissotel,doin us a big big favour.but we were stuck in a stupid
jam n e` dinner was suppose 2 start @ like 7pm.but we were late.everyone was stil lingering outside when we reached.every1 was reali pretty n stunning,every1 was dressed very nicely.it was rather formal.i felt underdressed,n i felt as tho i lked like crap :/ i din style my hair or anithin,but i rebonded it n juz clipped my fringe.oh wells. e` food wasn't dat great,in fact,its worse than the oriental hotel.when i worked as banquet waitress @ oriental,e` food tasted much beta.we juz ate e` 1st few courses n it was lights n camera time.took lotsa pics, esp wit my
two eye candies ((: yummy! dey lked gd ((:
e` rogues neva lked beta than dis.prettilicious.
flyingdutchman was our emcee,he was gd n rather hilarious.but i tink e` programme was boring 4 some point in time.stupid lucky draw.gdness.e` ppt presentation was quite dull too.afta so mani pic pics,cabbed down to club momo 4 our post prom party. it hell yea fun! lotsa booz n dancing. freakin
high. e` place was damn smokey too. dance floor was so so crowded,every1 was stepping on each other's feet. e` party was over ard 4am. went over 2 jeff's place wit some others n konked out. woke up e` nt morn at an unearthly hour of 8am.haha.came home ard 12+pm.lunch n napped 4 1hr. was real boredom 4 e` rest of e` dae...i'm dying,i nd a job,i'm penniless.some1 help me :/
today is a lonely dae.i realise how lonely i am.friendless.shall go find sth 2 do now.tata.
i wan more more more!
virgin ______*********
