shopping boo..
23 September 2006 12:41:00 pm
a shopping boo booi've neva felt SO tired roaming ard town,eva.feet was aching like hell,legs all turned sour.i cld juz collaspe on e street anitime.ade,carry me!
sadness is a tragedy.was pretty upset with mr orchard road.as deprived shopaholics,ade n me had e mind set dat town will b waiting 4 us,n we'll b spoilt 4 choice.it turned out e oppsite.all e clothes were dead boring.nth 2 see,all e same old friggin clothes.argh.we walked almost all e malls in town,onli 2 find nth.we onli bot a top each from chaos.reali pretty tho ((: so afta all,it wasn't a unsuccessful dae huh.saw dis very pretty Guess wallet.den we met up wit shir n lembu 2 haf dinner @ cine's pastamania.so we juz talked n talked ((: n as a kind kind bestie,i took bus no. 14 to accompany shir n ade 2 dental @ dover.n i got home in 1hr n a few min.haha.lembu was nice too.
goin over 2 ade's 4 movie marathon now.den gonna feast out w` andre @ ikea's cafe ((: 2mr.slack while i can.shit,am i slacking too much?there's still my A's! yay.i'm off!
i rmb,in e` past,i used 2 b quite selfish.not putting others b4 myself,n alwaes putting myself b4 others.i was also quite stingy,calculative @ times,but aniwaes,i can't afford to n generous too,i dun haf e financial means to,sadly. when i went 4 prefectorial board camp in sec1,each person in my grp hadta take turns 2 write sth bout each grp member.a few of em wrote dat i had attitude prob n hadta learn 2 put myself b4 others,den onli,great things will happen 4 me,n i'll haf more frens.dey juz shot me right in e` face dat i was selfish.obviously,e` emotional me cried like mad dat nite.i was reading all those notes ytd while tyding up my room. i tot,am i stil selfish now?sometimes,i can't help it.e` environment i was brot up in was a competitive 1.lotsa ppl in fairfield were alwaes fighting 2 b 1st.i cld see thru some of their true colours.mayb dats y my protective,selfish guard came up.but i was stil naive,a push over n vulnerable 2 "attacks" from others.my frens ard me were very calculative too,so inevitably,i got influenced.i used 2 gif big treats to my frens in primary sch,but dey took me 4 granted n treated me like some doormat.mayb,dat changed me.it was a dam bumpy ride.i din realise i was imperfect.i din realise there were ppl who din like my character. now,i reali hope i'm not living in my selfish shadow. God said, the more u give,th more u get back in return. i.e.rewards.well,it may not b in monetary terms.money is juz a worldly thing,tho stil impt 4 survival. oh wells,we can't please everyone. its dam hard to.some will juz hate u,some will juz love u.
