sore eyes

27 September 2006 12:29:00 am

super slacking

its depressing.juz when u got e` "prelim momentum" goin, it juz ceased. haf been goin absolutely nth since thur.been shopping,lazing ard,eating lika pig fat pig,watching hours n hours of tv n dvds.ignoring my dad's nagging 2 start mugging.argh.i feel lika wreck suddenly.so in a way,i've wasted six daes :/ 2mr's results dae,getting baq my prelim papers...i wanna get baq e momentum...i juz feel like rotting away,do nth,i'm so so restless to even sit down n do sth...MOMENTUM!

i'm having an eye infection.it doesn't lk dat bad on e` exterior.it went away b4 prelims n came baq last wk again due 2 my "super itchy hands + excessive scratching".how smart of me.my eyes r smarting e` ass outa me.skin ard it is dry,raw n painful.n its stil dam itchy.my eyes kp tearing,feels sticky too.eew.sometimes,i juz feel like gorging out my right eye.so i've been contact lenses-less 4 e` past few daes,parading in my fugly specs.haha.oh wells.hope my eyes will get well soon ((:

movie marathon on sat wit ade,arik,shawn,tian ning n ryan was fun ((: we watched SAW n scary movie 4.SAW was sick.i felt dam uneasy n disgusted.n i'm having nitemares over dat stupid masked man riding e` tricycle.freaked out totally.scary movie 4 was hilarious n lame.

sunday,eyes hurt like shit,so stayed @ home e` whole dae.lazed...eat eat eat...

monday,ade's place in e` aft.n den it was ikea cafe time wit "gal fren" andre.haha.he onli had one meal e` whole dae-dinner.i had THREE.n i wld haf four by e` time i reach home.aniwae,spent 120 bucks in 2daes.busted my wallet:/now i hafta start from scratch again;saving up. got my Guess wallet ((: thks ah bu dear.

2dae was a dae wit cher dear ((: more foodie.yay.i live to eat.
check out my new song list.all e` songs r reali gd ear candy!
i shall head to bedland now.there's sch 2mr.sadly.

momentum!

shopping boo..

23 September 2006 12:41:00 pm

a shopping boo boo

i've neva felt SO tired roaming ard town,eva.feet was aching like hell,legs all turned sour.i cld juz collaspe on e street anitime.ade,carry me!

sadness is a tragedy.was pretty upset with mr orchard road.as deprived shopaholics,ade n me had e mind set dat town will b waiting 4 us,n we'll b spoilt 4 choice.it turned out e oppsite.all e clothes were dead boring.nth 2 see,all e same old friggin clothes.argh.we walked almost all e malls in town,onli 2 find nth.we onli bot a top each from chaos.reali pretty tho ((: so afta all,it wasn't a unsuccessful dae huh.saw dis very pretty Guess wallet.den we met up wit shir n lembu 2 haf dinner @ cine's pastamania.so we juz talked n talked ((: n as a kind kind bestie,i took bus no. 14 to accompany shir n ade 2 dental @ dover.n i got home in 1hr n a few min.haha.lembu was nice too.
goin over 2 ade's 4 movie marathon now.den gonna feast out w` andre @ ikea's cafe ((: 2mr.slack while i can.shit,am i slacking too much?there's still my A's! yay.i'm off!

i rmb,in e` past,i used 2 b quite selfish.not putting others b4 myself,n alwaes putting myself b4 others.i was also quite stingy,calculative @ times,but aniwaes,i can't afford to n generous too,i dun haf e financial means to,sadly. when i went 4 prefectorial board camp in sec1,each person in my grp hadta take turns 2 write sth bout each grp member.a few of em wrote dat i had attitude prob n hadta learn 2 put myself b4 others,den onli,great things will happen 4 me,n i'll haf more frens.dey juz shot me right in e` face dat i was selfish.obviously,e` emotional me cried like mad dat nite.i was reading all those notes ytd while tyding up my room. i tot,am i stil selfish now?sometimes,i can't help it.e` environment i was brot up in was a competitive 1.lotsa ppl in fairfield were alwaes fighting 2 b 1st.i cld see thru some of their true colours.mayb dats y my protective,selfish guard came up.but i was stil naive,a push over n vulnerable 2 "attacks" from others.my frens ard me were very calculative too,so inevitably,i got influenced.i used 2 gif big treats to my frens in primary sch,but dey took me 4 granted n treated me like some doormat.mayb,dat changed me.it was a dam bumpy ride.i din realise i was imperfect.i din realise there were ppl who din like my character. now,i reali hope i'm not living in my selfish shadow. God said, the more u give,th more u get back in return. i.e.rewards.well,it may not b in monetary terms.money is juz a worldly thing,tho stil impt 4 survival. oh wells,we can't please everyone. its dam hard to.some will juz hate u,some will juz love u.

i'm done

21 September 2006 10:16:00 pm

its over.no.its onli the beginning n close to the end.

prelims is officially over 2 dae.last paper,physics paper3. it was, ok.but paper1 was a super killer seriously.so mani calculation qns,every1 cldn't finish on time. i cldn't even finish more than half of e` qns,had "ti kam" most of it.its such a sad case.i'm dam upset.my mcq is so so screwed. i'm so screwed 4 math too,which is apparently,my strongest subject.sadly,i dun haf much confidence in math 4 prelims,since i totally messed it up. poor time management :/ A's in 5 more weeks.dats....fast.i'm scared.paranoia.

saturdae,ade ryan n me studied @ KAP.ade cldn't eat fastfd since she was sick,so we headed over 2 BTP 4 lunch.guess wad happened when we returned?our things were all gone.dey removed it.well,yes we were in e wrong 2 leave our stuff ere,but those KAP Mc's ppl were buggers too,sniggering away when we went 2 e` counter 2 get our bags (which dey kept in e` kitchen).one stupid counter lady cld even ask us,"may i haf ur order?" gdness stupid woman,noe dat we're juz @ e` counter 2 retrieve our darn bags,bet she was bein a bitch.argh,ade was dam pissed,she cldn't stay @ KAP ani longer.so we headed over 2 her place. haha,i tell u,its dam difficult 2 mugg @ ade's place.its so quiet when no 1's ard.n e` food at her house is so tempting.tv's even more tempting.watched tv in e` nite. oh wells,wasted some time,but we'll juz deceive ourselves n treat it as break time! ((:
bad bad diarrhea on sunday-can 4get bout shitting 4 e next few daes. :/

headed to raffles city with cher dear afta physics paper 2dae.190 bus trip.e` shopping mall was darn quiet cauz it was ard 11:30am hwen we reached.i feel like a deprived child,deprived of shopping,hidden in a well.i neva knew raffles city changed so much,so mani new eateries!!! food,wad i live for.heavenly,we were spoilt 4 choice.n when we headed over 2 marina square,there were more new shops.we ate @ pizza hut..yummy yummy.beef lagsane n chicken mushroom baked pasta.its been a long time since i ate @ pizza hut. den shopped ard.it wasn't v crowded,so it was gd. bot a emerald green toga from zara n a bracelet from dorothy perkins.got my big sis her 21st prezzie too! gonna send it over 2 aussie.in all i spent more than 50 bucks 2dae.still, it can't beat my spending frenzy during GSS in june. i'm geared up 4 shopping! marina wasn't dat all interesting,n cher n i were dead beat.legs aching...but i enjoyed myself dear cher.
goin out wit bestie ade 2mr ((: shoppies,here i come!

n sometimes,u stil linger on my mind.but i noe,i will neva wana rewind baq time to where i was in e past.

my current ear candy!

Too Little Too Late - Jojo

Come with me
Stay the night
You say the words but boy it don’t feel right
What do you expect me to say?(You know it’s just too little too late)
You take my hand
And you say you’ve changed
But boy you know your beggin’ don’t fool me
Because to you it’s just a game(You know it’s just a little too late)

So let me on down
Cause time has made me strong
I’m starting to move on
I’m gonna say this now
Your chance has come and gone
And you know

It’s just too little too late
A little too wrong
And I can’t wait
but you know all the right things to say
You know it’s just a little too late
You say you dream of my face
But you don’t like me
You just like the chase
To be real, it doesn’t matter anyway
You know it’s just too little too late

YEAH yeahhh....mmmmm

It’s just too little too late

I was young and in love
I gave you everything but it wasn’t enough
And now you wanna communicate( You know it’s just too little too late)

Go find someone else
I’m letting you go, I’m loving myself
You gotta problem
But don’t come asking me for help
Cause you know

It’s just too little too late
A little too wrong
And I can’t wait
But you know all the right things to say
You know it’s just too little too late
You say you dream of my face
But you don’t like me
You just like the chase
To be real, it doesn’t matter anyway
You know it’s just too little too late

I can love with all of my heart, baby
I know I have so much to give( I have so much to give)
With a player like you, I don’t have a prayer
That’s the way to live, oh ho

mmmm...no

It’s just too little too late, yeah

It’s just too little too late
A little too wrong
And I can’t wait
But you know all the right things to say
You know it’s just too little too late
You say you dream of my face
But you don’t like me
You just like the chase
To be real, it doesn’t matter anyway
You know it’s just too little to late

You know it’s just too little too late

It’s just too little too late
A little too wrong
And I can’t wait
but you know all the right things to say
You know it’s just a little too late
You say you dream of my face
But you don’t like me
You just like the chase
To be real, it doesn’t matter anyway
You know it’s just too little to late

prelims!

05 September 2006 9:03:00 am

PRELIMS NEXT WEEK! I'M FRETTING.I HAVEN'T DONE SO SO MUCH.SO MUCH MORE TO ACCOMPLISHED.ARGH.HELP.

I'LL BE ON HIATUS ((: BINGING AGAIN?MAYBE :/