u made me feel like a fool
01 April 2006 10:56:00 am
u made me feel like a foolhappy b'dae MOMMY!!! i luv u ((:mommy's b'dae on april's fool,how cute :D
got baq common test results dis wk.its horrid.its reali horrid,both sciences like shit.horrid,like i said in my previous entry,expected it aniwae,din put in enuff effort,din study enuff.all our tchrs tellin us 2 become nuns n monks 4 e nt 7mths.n our new principal is quite strict,puttin indirect pressure on us thru e tchrs,so its gonna get harder n harder 2 breathe 4 both tchrs n students.
i cried.but it wasn't cauz of my results.it was dat insensitivity in u.
Our turn out 4 trials was quite horrid on wed n fri,due 2 e fact dat touch rugby cldn't recruit durin 1st 3 mths,we held out trials so late n all e` othr gals were alr pulled into othr CCAs which had their trials b4 march hols.quite pissed.argh.like,touch rugby alwaes had a rather gd reputation,i hope.haha.n we hafta pick e beta ones.but i guess,like yoke said,it all boils down 2 how we're gonna train em.our juniors' fate lies in our hands now.we gotta push em,real hard. i tink my slpin habit is gettin from bad 2worse.i tot slpin @ 12am evry nite wld help.but my head juz kps jerking downwards, n sometimes,i wld even fall aslp unawaringly.i nd more beauty slp. my hair's all screwed n fugly.there's 05S15 reunion steamboat dinner 2dae ((: cauz daddy's goin into army.i did a quiz bout my future career.i dunno if its accurate,dis is wad dey said :
"You would be good at a social career like a teacher or librarian a job like that! And if that doesn't happen you'll marry a rich guy and be a stay at home mom! Good luck! haha"
ok,so i'm gonna resort 2 bein a tai tai if i dun b'come a social worker or teacher?oh pls,not a librarian.for now,i may wanna take up a nursing degree in NUS (which evry1 laughs bout wheneva i tell em i wanna b a nurse!). actualli,i dunno if i reali wanna b a nurse.wad if i fall aslp while i gif my patients a jab?or wad if i haf constant hunger pangs while working?n when i do nite shifts,wil there b ghost n spirits lurking behind me?i'm afraid 2 see blood n maggoty wounds on those fragile bodies.i'l hafta clean e` patients' pang sai too,gross. :D wad if i hafta deal wit died bodies?n will their spirits come n haunt me?dats so freaky,i'l hafta visit e mortuary n pay my respects 2 em.do i haf to?hopefully not! haha. den life in a e` cute nurse uniform wld b so happy ((: i'll hafta deal wit my emotions too,i'm a very emotional person,n sometimes,nurses hafta put aside our emotions when we deal wit our patients.mayb afta my degree in nursing,i'l haf a far-fetched dream: head e whole nursing section in a hospital.ok,dats abit ambitious n dumb of me.its juz an illusion. i dun mind marryin a rich guy,cauz its tai tai life.but i dun wanna b a free loader n feel useless,i wanna earn my own keep n make a mark in life.its not juz bout having a career,but an established one.a successful career dat is.mani ppl alwaes feel dey shld pursuit a career of their interest.but sometimes we dun tink: will dat career b practical?yes,i may find joy in my job,but am i able 2 support my family wit my earnings?if u're a man,den dis qns wil even more b directed 2 u.cauz ur wife can't b e sole breadwinner of e family,unless u're a house-husband ((: dis is e reality of life. so i'll b a part time tai tai? ((: u made me feel so stupid.but e truth is,i din put in ani effort at all.does dat mean i'm stupid?
