25 March 2006 11:38:00 am
the right side or left side of the fence24th march- happy
4 months baby ((: ((: sugar,its been 4months wit u.so mani things u wldn't haf imagined.even tokin bout our future n stuff.haha. i luv u sugar.
common test is finally over.ok,i'm very sure i'm goin 2 do reali reali bad 4 evrythin.e onli sub dat can make it is my math.if i fail e rest of my sub,i wun b surprised.why?b'cause i din touch my phy n chem tys.i bluff myself 2tink dat studyin my lecture notes is enuff but i'm wrong.i'm so stupid 2tink notes can lead u 2 a grade A.so now i noe notes ain't of use,so like dey sae "practice makes perfect",not ur stupid notes.but i hate doin tys,too lazy,i like readin model ans.haha.but bkshops ain't got dat freakin red spot animore. yokie said we muz b consistent.yeah,can stil play @ e same time too.but where's my source of motivation gonna come from? i noe i'm gonna do badly 4 dis common test,but it juz kept bluffing myself 2 tink dat its alrite,its ok.it was juz lika masquerade.deep down inside,i knew it ain't gonna b ok.i knew,i slacked too much.i knew dat i've not put in enuff effort.each nite b4 e exam,i wld close my bk n tink,"oh,its enuff,i can go do othr things now..eat..wadeva".n my habit of not consultin tchrs.is it arrogance or plan laziness?u noe wad?i consulted mr kow over some phy mcq qns last yr,he took quite long 2 explain 2 me onli a few mcq qns,n idiot me almost fell aslp.dats y,i tot dat consultation 4me will alwaes be useless,cauz i can't be bothered 2ask qns.mayb i shld drop e tinkin dat consultation is juz a waste of time.stupid me.i tink ere's a lil prob wit my studyin method too. i nd MMM.
i'm so deprived of shoppin!! juz spent
160 bucks ytd. mango white jean pants n a black tube from zara plus my contact lenses.haha,i noe e tubes makes me lk dam flat.but heck.its nice.haha.oh man,i'm gonna spend more 2dae w` ade again.n it was ade's
idea 2 town ytd cauz she said she felt like buyin sth,but instead,i was e big spender.she onli bot "carmen sandiego" pc game cd from funan's challenger. so we juz went ard town afta our last paper...oh man,we were so so shagged.my ankle started hurtin like shit,its swellin up again,n its been 1mth since i sprained it.
den headed 2 queensway 4 my contact lenses.den ade's dad came 2 pick us up 4 funan,where we got reali intrigued by e old old on sale pc games.played dis bugsy game,n we juz kept losin our lives n remained @ level 1.level 1 level 1...had jap fd take away 4 dinner @ ade's place wit ade,shir n thier mom n dad.
tv nite-shining star n da chang jin! omg,i was so full.my stomach was feelin queasy n weird.appetite wasn't dat gd,but i felt bad dat i din finish e fd.hai.but e best-worse part wasn't there yet,when ade's mom brot out e` whole large chunk of moist
chocolate sponge cake.my stomach instantly rumbled.i suddenly had e appetite! ((: *beams. me shir n ade ate like 3 slices of cake afta our dinner.we polished up dat 15X15cm piece of cake. we were like dyin,cauz we were so full.ade cld stil happily finish up her 3rd piece while shir n me lked @ her pitifully.
on my way home,it was dam freaky.cauz it was like 11+pm alr.den i was waitin 4 bus near kap.den dis van from JB packed wit ticko malay men stopped @ e bus stop i was at.den dey started smilin widely n laughin n starin @ me,n honked their van too,tryin 2 grab my attention.dey drove their van back n forth along e bus stop lane.hello,i'm not turned on by ur smiles n stares,bet ur men r those who juz go ard picken up chickens from ur own JB geylang.i was quite freaked out,cauz i was alone,n i din noe wad dey might do.thank gdness i juz lked away n continued listenin 2my ipod.it was scary.
goin out wit ah bu soon.stupid ade's stil @ home.hur hur.had a fillin lunch ((: yong tau foo. su lin n dino r gettin married in US soon,so dey r here 2 cele their wedding wit us.1 table family wedding dinner later ((: ipod's down again.e com hadta restore my ipod n erase all my songs :/ i'm v sad.dorc,i'm so sorry i hafta bother u again:/ sorry.
so who's e one dat changed,u or him?now i'm quite confused.is evrythin changin so fast dat i can't catch up wit such politics animore.i dun even noe who's sittin on e fence now.its such a game.n its like a contracting puke scenes in ur brain.n i tot it was bad enuff 2 lose u.to noe dat there's an unseen,unsaid barrier btw us,makes me wanna cry even more.but i knew dat barrier was there long ago as long as we started 2 drift apart 2 find our knew closest "ones". onli e tot of you n our fond memories can make me cry.yes i miss u too.
